A new middle from New Zealand

[Bingbongsfriend]

Hello everyone. I’m a new middle who lives in New Zealand.

 

My little self is a girl around 10-12. Between the ages of 11-15 was not happy time for me and would have felt better to not have gone through those years. Feels better to go back to an age where things were happier and felt safer.

 

Non-binary is probably the best description of my gender identity so far and are open to a better description. Although a biological male, do not identify as male at all. Often get repulsed seeing my boy bits, and feels uncomfortable going to male toilets.  Identify more as female, but not comfortable being a female either. In public wear almost entirely women’s clothing that looks gender neutral partly because too small to fit almost all adult male clothes. Prefer female clothing, but don’t unwanted attention of anything looking too feminine. Even so have been abused on the street when looking androgynous, probably because of the long hair.  Can fit 12 year old and sometimes smaller clothes, so easy to dress up as a little girl. Have lots of dresses and other girlie clothes hidden away. Living with parents does not leave that much time to wear them. Am sure my mother has some idea I have girl’s clothes, but have a bit of understanding that is not a good idea to go through my stuff. Took a long time to get the courage to openly wear girls PJs to bed. Would love to wear openly wear really girlie PJs which look so cute and feel so comfortable, but not ready to do that yet.

 

Do enjoy walking and multi-day hikes, although has been over a year since I have spent the night in the bush. Into photography, mainly wildlife and landscape.  People photography is not really my thing.

 

Mainly joined forum to find out more about myself.

[Guest Arc]

Welcome! It's always nice to see another kiwi here. ^^

[DaemonFaerie]

Yay another kiwi middle (tbh I kind of range between little and middle but more middle than little - if that makes any sense at all...) Nice to "meet" you!!!