My Caregiver Fears

[DaddyKens]

My Caregiver fears.

 

1. What if I fail my little.

That’s a constant one. Not being enough, not being there enough, not showing enough. It’s not just that I fear failing my SO, but leaving my little feeling alone, neglected and afraid.

 

2. What if I don’t show it enough.

If I don’t show enough guidance, encouragement, structure and rules. Or if I don’t show that I understand her needs. If I don't react to her needs.

 

3. What if I say or do the wrong thing.

Will she think I don’t care. Think that actually I don’t want to be in the relationship. That I don't understand what she want from me as her Caregiver.

 

4. What if my little loses interest.

I’ve failed. Simple as that. If my little decides I’m not the right caregiver for her, I failed to show who I was at the beginning.

 

5. What if my little decides she no longer trusts me.

Boy but I fucked up! If she doesn’t trust me what the hell did I do wrong. Did I forget the name of her favourite stuffy. Does she think I have secrets. Am I not there enough. Does she think I don’t care. Do I not show her that I trust her.

 

These are my main fears. There are more, lots more. But these fears make me strive to get it right. To care for and keep my little safe, confident and whole.

 

Being a Caregiver can be tough as these fears are real. They DO apply to muggle relationships as well but, in Cg/l land, they carry so much more weight. Responsibility for a little can be hard, difficult at times, but so much more rewarding.

 

Sometimes the unexpected hug, a smile or the holding of a hand tells me I’m doing ok.

 

But what if she decides to leave......

[Panda God]

Wow.. I always keep forgetting that CG's have anxieties too. As a little, when you see your CG as perfect, it's hard to fathom that they have the same worries as you do. That they don't feel good enough. That they think you might leave.

 

Hang in there, my dude.

[SnowBun]

I think it's natural to worry about stuff like this! I can understand completely, even though I'm a little, my daddy tends to worry about similar stuff and it gives me a chance to take care of him too!

I think if you haven't already, which I dont wanna assume you have or haven't, but I think you should try and sit down with your little and try to talk about some of the things you're worried about.

I think often as littles we think our caregivers are perfect, and never have any problems whatsoever, or at least I tend to forget it. But I know that if your little was to know about the things you're worrying about when you're worrying about them, she'd definitely try her best to cheer you up and calm your worries!

[DaddyKens]

Thank you both.

 

Must apologise for not making something clear though

 

I am currently without little. These fears I have experienced before and tbh,

they kinda put me off seriously looking for a little now.

 

I have a personals ad but I don't really make sure it is bumped up very often.

Pretty daft I know but I haven't had a little in such a long time that these fears

make me wonder if I actually would/could be what a little would need.

 

Still, we all have 'off' days.

 

Anyway, my apologies again for not making that clear at the outset.