Trust is broken :(

[Guest SugarNSpiceSam]

My trust is completely broken at this point. Anytime I find anyone, I put my complete trust them. Well each time I fell in love or became involved with someone my trust became broken little by little. Now I feel like it's completely broken because for once I thought I had something good and that they truly cared. Little things were suspicious and I kept telling myself to just trust him as being my Daddy since this is all new to me. He broke up with his ex girlfriend because it simply wasn't working out for him. This is where I think I made my mistake. I'm not sure of the whole story behind them both fully. He said he didn't care about her any longer, yet he still was friends with her as he got involved with me and would video call with her. I wouldn't have minded if they broke up lets say a year or ago or something like that. However it was recent and he said his love for her was gone. Turns out it was a lie. I strongly believe he was using me to get back at his ex. Especially he called me by her name twice and made me cry horribly. I forgave him but it still hurt for days after and for quite awhile cause I paid attention to his actions and they said everything.... That he didn't mean when he said he loved me. It was all just a sham. How could I be so naive yet again? This is where I beat myself up over it. I know what it feels like when a person truly loves you and he didn't seem like it at all by how often he would avoid me to talk to others. I'd go to bed wondering what I did wrong and he said up and down that everything was okay.... 

 

In the end I got hurt because he called me by her name Twice and would video call not only me but other girls as well. The thing is so you see my point is that he didn't put his all into it as I did with him. Once he woke up he would video call with people before me and I would be thought of as last. I never truly got his attention as he was talking with me either or ask me about my day or anything. We had one video call date and we watched a movie together. I keep thinking of all the events inside of my mind and thinking maybe I rushed into it simply cause I fell for him too fast because we made a connection and I haven't made a connection with anyone in quite awhile since I've been single. So this is my mistake on my end and I know I made a horrible decision. He wanted me to trust him fully, yet I don't think I could because he called me by his ex gf's name twice.

 

I didn't mind if he would have talked to his friends, but he seemed like he didn't want to talk to me all that much and was distant towards me which he said he was sorry and he wouldn't be distant towards me any longer. This is why my suspicious were raised by his behavior and why I got a little upset when he was talking to his friends cause actions say everything. Talked to many of my friends and a lot of them think I rushed into this and think maybe I should work on myself which I agree. I admitt that I made a mistake and didn't think this over clearly before getting involved.

 

I'm still deeply hurt though and my stomach hurts. I haven't cried, but it still does hurt. My friends look after me. All of them do. My trust is completely broken and I'm not sure if I'll able to trust again for awhile so I think this is something I need to work on and work on myself as well. I'm still beating myself up about this and I still think of the powerful connection we had but maybe just maybe we rushed into this and I was just hoping that we could stay together. Cause he clearly wasn't over his ex yet. But it still does hurt. A lot. 

[Littlest_Bee]

The best advice I can offer is: Take your time to get over this.

 

What happened clearly was hard for you. So you definitely shouldn't rush decisions now. Be kind to yourself. None of us know how things would turn out if we had made different choices. You should reflect on how you can protect yourself in the future but don't blame yourself for what happened. None of us stays completely rational if feelings are involved. It can be hard to see warning signs.

 

Luckily you said you have great friends who are there for you.

I'm sure you'll feel better if you just take your time.

 

Best wishes ❤

[Big Daddy D]

Awe. I'm sorry that happened. Don't give up though, the right person is out there and when you find him, he will dedicate his entire existence to making sure his little girl always feels happy, safe and loved. I think it's very important for both sides to connect on an Adult level first, because I know what worked for me and what didn't in the past. The way you've described this person who hurt you, they sound too selfish for a DDLG relationship anyway. Don't you think you deserve better than that? I think you do. Don't settle, the perfect Daddy for you is out there.