I think I may be a little!!

[Lilith-Lynn-Lupin]

I just discovered age play in romance novels. I have always had a big imagination. When I am alone I find myself coloring, painting, and occasionally I will play with toys. I tell myself that they are just nostalgic. Like my Super Nintendo, my light bright, my teddy Ruxpin, and my treasure trolls. I have many dolls and stuffed animals I have held onto. I have a Harry Potter collection, and was so happy when I found my sister in laws old Hermione Doll be cause I have never taken mine out of the package. I catch myself singing kid songs while watching Disney Channel and Nickelodeon. I thought I was weird, I shudder to think what my husband would think of he found out. Am I just nostalgic or am I unknowingly retreating into little space?

[Little kaiya]

It could be nostalgia, it could be little space, it could be something else entirely or it could be a combination of some or all of the above. The more important questions perhaps are "does it really matter? Is a label going to make you feel happier".

 

If the answer to either is yes, then examine it, look into it and analyze it but realize you are the only one who can answer your questions. If the answers were no, then just do what you enjoy and don't overthink it or let a label get in the way of doing what you want to do.

 

So many people are so worried and eager to categorize things that sometimes it makes it really easy to miss out on the simple act of just enjoying the present moment.

 

Little kaiya

[Guest Sunshinekitty]

I've been married almost 26 years, and last year I finally confronted the fact that I am little and told my husband.

 

It took months to talk to him about it. When I spoke to him, I let him know that it changed nothing between us unless he was okay with that. I gave him the option to say no to me--because we're partners, and if I don't trust my partner, who can I really trust?

 

I started with small things when I started to open up to him. I talked about what I enjoy. I let him know my preferences. I told him nothing was a reflection on him, but rather my desires and who I am. And it opened it up for him to ask me questions about things--like why I had been sleeping with a stuffed animal.

 

Because he'd been with me all that time and he loves me, he was willing to take a moment to understand me. And since who I am and what I'm doing is innocent and doesn't hurt anyone, he has eased into things with me. It's been very awesome, and best of all, I don't have to hide it from him.

 

So, my suggestion is to take it slow, do your research, and then slowly start to open up and talk to him about the little things you enjoy--if you're comfortable with it. From my own experience, ir you're little, you're already shining as who you are. And if he doesn't want to play with you in that space, but accepts you--that's still better than feeling like you have to hide it all away from the person you love and trust the most. Safety and trust are important for health and well-being.

 

You'll figure this out.

[Lilith-Lynn-Lupin]

Thank you. I do need to do more research. I appreciate you taking the time to respond. I plan to actively explore this side of me. I think maybe I am looking for permission. Last night I wanted to ride the carousel at the boardwalk is Shreveport. I was with a teacher friend the same age as my Mom. I commented that I wish we had our students so that I had an excuse to ride it. She was very supportive and wondered why I needed kids. If I wanted to ride it I should just ride it. So we did, then went to the sushi restaurant and the concert we were going to attend. So again, thank you!