The Poly Little

[BoPeep]

Looking for advice from littles and caregivers, any input will be greatly appreciated!

 

I am super new to DDLG (not so much to BDSM) but have been Poly for a long time. Now I have found a Daddy who is wonderful, and nurturing my inner little (FYI it's online only at the moment given the great distance between us, I fully intend to move half way around the world to be with him properly, as soon as my other life commitments allow). As my little emerges more, I am becoming more and more uncomfortable with the thought of Daddy playing with others, despite knowing from day 1 that I was not his only sub, and me being at the time in a LT vanilla relationship. Why am I now so uncomfortable with something I've been fine with since being a kid?

 

Are there any more poly littles out there who can maybe give me some advice so I can get my head on right again, why is my brain betraying me like this??

[Guest Kitty~]

Also poly here *big hugs*

Jealousy is perfectly normal in poly relationships, yes even poly relationships experience jealousy! you're not alone! I sometimes get jealous too. I always recommend to people to journal how their feeling first, and then talk to their partner about it. Journaling can often be therapeutic, and writing out your feelings can really help. Please talk to your partner how your feeling, im sure they will comfort you and be understanding and may even get jealous at times too!

[BoPeep]

Thanks for your response Mommy Kitty, I know you are right about talking to him about it, I definitely should, but I dont want him to feel I'm reneging on terms we have previously agreed. I also dont want him to decide that he's not ok with me not being ok with it... if that makes sense?! Oh how I long for the days when I just ignored all the bad feelings and pushed them away, I just dont want to fuck this up!

[Guest Kitty~]

I completely understand your reasons for not wanting to talk it out, in that case i highly recommend journaling your feelings out and see if that helps its something my therapist recommended to me and often feels like im ''talking'' my feelings out even when i didnt wanna. Another thing my therapist also recommended is writing a pretend letter to the person you wanna talk to as if you was actually talking to them, then rip it up when your done that way you sort of talked out your feelings. But I do think communication is strongly important, but understand your reasons for not wanting to ...i hope maybe journaling and the pretend letter could help.

[BoPeep]

Thank you so much, I will try it