I don't know what to put

[littleimpprincess22]

Why after 3 hours did my caregiver finally realize I wasn't in bed

[Guest His_Little_Doll]

Uh oh! 

[Little kaiya]

Maybe they trusted you to go to bed on time so didn't feel the need to check?

[littleimpprincess22]

No he knows I don't sleep and I'm visiting him for a few weeks, he just doesn't bother staying awake which I sorta understand and I don't like waking him up, but he deni's when he falls asleep and it annoys me

[Little kaiya]

I'm confused. If he knows you don't sleep why would he expect you to be in bed? It kind of sounds more like you're upset he denies falling asleep vs not noticing you're in bed. I'm just not clear on what's the actual issue.

[littleimpprincess22]

I'm upset that he doesn't realize I disappeared and was in a bad mood for hours I felt like crap and didn't wanna bother him and all he wants to do is cuddle but I wanna get my mind emptied first

[MissNMTX]

He can't know what you want or need if you don't tell him. Especially if you're not always together. Sounds to me you're testing him and then getting upset when he can't read your mind. I understand this, truly I do. Everyone wants to be understood on that foundational level. It just seems a bit "mind ready" and unfair is all.

[Erasmeus71]

Uh oh.

[littleimpprincess22]

I suppose....

[Erasmeus71]

Do you write a daily journal. Dear daddy I feel this way today.... ! I want this today. I would like to this... I want to eat this.... I want a new toy. or dress....Just ideas. This would be a rule for my little. Oh make sure to date it. Let him read it. It is not a Dear ABBY diary.

Edited February 14, 2023 by Erasmeus71

[Guest CareFae]

1 hour ago, MissNMTX said:

He can't know what you want or need if you don't tell him. Especially if you're not always together. Sounds to me you're testing him and then getting upset when he can't read your mind. I understand this, truly I do. Everyone wants to be understood on that foundational level. It just seems a bit "mind ready" and unfair is all.

Definitely this. In spite all that Caregivers can do, they aren't mind readers. And beyond that, correct me if I'm wrong, but it almost reads as if you're upset that he didn't give up sleep for several hours while you didn't want to talk but needed to empty your mind first. Caregivers are still human and have human needs like sleep. If you aren't ready to talk, perhaps he feels space is the best option so you can sort through your thoughts. And if space isn't what you need and you truly need comfort first, then you will have to make that need known to him. If you have already had these discussions and he's still choosing to ignore your needs then I think that's a different story, but it's hard to read from just a few sentences and I don't want to assume too much.

[littleimpprincess22]

I like the journal idea, I used to write a lot as a kid but my parents used to not just invade privacy but they'd share my journals with SH counts and SN and poems and deep stuff with all their friends and talk badly about me then lock me up so I haven't journaled in a year or two.. I'll try it though, as of the communication and his needs your 100 percent correct, I don't mean to be like that it's just I can't verbally communicate when I'm feeling down it's like my voice is completely gone and after awhile he gives up trying to please me cuz I myself can't figure out what to do or what my problem really is then it builds up when he's sleeping cuz I'm alone with my mind and have no distractions and I don't wanna bother him while he's asleep it's bad enough he takes care of me during the day even at volunteering he has to check on me ever few hours cuz I get lonely super easily...

[Erasmeus71]

I had a girlfriend that drove me crazy. As she was very quite. I kept getting one word answers . At most 3-5 words sentence. I saw others whether it was mommy's rules or Daddy's rules they made the little have a journal. I was having a hard time trying to figure out what she was thinking. Yet I did not want to hurt her.

Edited February 14, 2023 by Erasmeus71

[littleimpprincess22]

I like that I'm gonna talk to him about it and try it out thank you

[Erasmeus71]

I added another line cameras. Maybe he could watch you. However that is expensive.