Lovely, scared messy human...clean your room kiddos!

[redruffle41]

Hi Lovlies! Just had to put this out there cuz we all may need a pep talk and a flashlight to shine on ourselves in life.  I know we are all little/middle and in between. But that doesn't have to mean we are scared, broken or weak.

I've noticed so many in this dynamic want to trade in their selves, their sex, and their lives just so a daddy will swoop in and save them from their messy room. We all want love; love can help inspire and lift up. But eventually baby you're gonna have to learn to clean your own room. That's what the good daddies want from us!!! The bad ones want you weak and unable. Good Daddy can help for sure. But that doesn't mean that you can't already do it. You can live your life from where it's at each day and make progress and improve. Daddy's love can help but not his car, his money, his house, his physical labor etc. Any daddy worth his mettel would just want to be so proud of the woman is little has worked to be. Get the daddy you deserve by being the person you deserve to be.  Ask yourself "how can I get that" and then do it!!! Don't let yourself say anything negative. Say, I want to, I get to, I choose to!!! These are words that matter!

I've been there. I'm 41 now but when I was in my 20s I was scared, depressed, shut down, lost and of course horny! In fact that had been the default setting of my soul for my entire life. It's all I knew myself to be. So of course I found a guy that wanted to hit this and married him. We gave each other 15years of our lives total and now we are divorcing.....I dont wallow in regret but gratitude for that time I grew so much and I have my baby daughter. But I know now even more about how to be careful with my life. To not throw it away cuz I'm just so scared to live. So scared to be alone and face all the scary things like bills, school, money, cars....adulting!! Gah! It IS hard. But the hard can make us great!!! There's nothing like knowing myself to be a warrior! I wish that for everyone I meet and talk to. That they recognize that they are the hero of their own lives. And heros choose. They are smart. They value themselves first in order to give and love and help others! 

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I don't want to be fixed, I just want to heal.

In other words; I want personal growth through changes that I've made myself, rather than be coddled or used. It's always a delicate dance between the good and bad days for sure. Not too much dependence on Mommy, but not too little of her assistance either.

Sometimes, I feel overwhelmingly outnumbered by Littles who just want to be fixed, or even worse- saved. And while everyone is entitled to their own life's path. I don't personally relate to Evanescence's Bring Me To Life, but I do relate heavily to MCR's Mama.

I want to eventually heal to a point that I feel fulfilled enough to no longer rely on any form of age regression. To be free from my past demons and finally have beaten the trauma end boss. I would not wish involuntary age regression on anyone, not even a worst enemy.

But I also understand that everybody heals, grows, and learns differently. So while my harsher approach to Littlespace is fine and dandy for me, isn't for everyone. And that's okay.

Divorce is hard, I hope you pull through okay. Thanks for sharing that detail about yourself. It's difficult to share, but your words will help someone else, I'm sure.