balancing being a parent and little time

[Biscuits1]

the older my kids get the harder its becoming to even do the smallest little stuff, my kids tell me to grow up stop acting like a kid. i end up crying and shutting my self away.i try my hardest to be a parent but sometimes its really hard to not do little stuff. ive always kinda struggled before but lately its gotten much worse and i think its cause i have a daddy now and im discovering what i am and he brings out little stuff in me naturaly. it really sucks when we are having special us time then i get a knock on my door from on of the kids and it violently rips me out of little space and its soo hard. just how do parents juggle this?! my eldist is 20 and she recently mentioned that she thinks i age regress and i was so embarrised that its that bad she noticed, shes not the most accepting of it but i think shes trying, she just finds it super weird and doesnt want to see it, ive had thoughts of just trying to lock my little side away permantly and break up with my daddy but i dont want to do that, but its just so emotionally difficult. i wouldent recomend any little to have kids , its lovely to begin with, playing and being little with small children but as they get older its just so hard. i dont know how to cope , please someone give me some advice, or tell me how to snap out of being little without ending up in tears

[little locket]

Hi 

I'm so sorry your struggling and your children aren't being understanding. I only have an 8 year old but I have to be careful with what he sees me doing or wearing coz young kids have no filter and I can't risk him telling everyone at school I like nappies or have a paci or something. 

I understand how upsetting and hard it must be to start and stop so abruptly, but I don't think locking it up will do you good coz then your mental health could suffer..... which just effects the kids more coz they will see that. If your kids are older you could always set a routine where you have a 'therapy time' that they can't disturb, so many kids are taught the importance of mental health these days that you could set it up as a family thing where everyone gets a mental health recharge slot. If they want to nap or play console games or even meditate then that's them, but your slot could be Little time and if you know when it's gonna end you can give yourself maybe a few mins at end to safely come out rather than ripped out. 

😓 I know it's not a great suggestion coz as littles we all just want to be Little all the time with no consequences or judgement, but hopefully having some time that you know mostly safe is better than locking yourself away and denying yourself. 

Lots of hugs and love your way from this Little mum to you 🫂