Losing your little, your baby, your lover is the worst thing in the world - LONG POST

[bigdaddyCG]

I don't even know where to begin and plz forgive me if this post goes on and on but I need to vent. 

So it began about 2 years ago I met this most amazing cute young girl, I had been on my own for years, I had never met A girl like her before and this is before I learnt she had a whole other side to her. 

In one of our many online conversations I randomly asked could you ever call me daddyyyy I just like the name, I wasn't even thinking of what it means because I'd never heard of DDLG or CL or anything like that...

After a pause she responded,I have something to tell you, I like have this like part of me where I can become a child here I am confused, but as she explained it she had some psychological trauma as a child and as an adult she has times where she can involuntarily become a child or a toddler age, still perplexed... I decided to do some research and I started to understand she is actually an age regressor and this is actually one of her personalities this is not role playing and this is always apart of her even if she's not always in that child like state she is still childish in general. 

We talked a lot in depth about it and she felt safe enough to explain this to me and that she never really told anyone else not even her own mother. 

She said since we been talking her baby/little side has always been there in her head and she tells me that baby she calls her baby or baby girl and that she is really happy and getting closer to me and feels like I could be A good daddy for her. One night she says do you want to try talk to baby on the phone???

I'm like wow I'm not sure what to do but I guess I will try she tells me to talk to baby with cute baby words and things like daddy is here and that will help her come out to play.. it was a surreal experience it felt so amazing I felt so proud I could tell baby was there, baby was like dada hewwoo I'm like heeyy bub I'm so happy to meet you she's like giggle giggle squeaks and also a lot of non verbal mmmm mhm yea happy baby happy. 

I didn't know what I was in for, things grew over time we planned to meet she was still a grown woman and still looking for love and a relationship not just a daddy.

Sorry I'm going to have to summarise this other wise it will turn into pages and pages does anybody want to actually read a whole story or do I summarise it down either way my baby, the love of my life, the one I thought was my soul mate in the end she left and I have no idea why, I understand there was a lot of stress, a lot of things in our lives lately worried about ending up homeless, fertility issues, money issues, my depression might have ment I wasn't always as attentive as a daddy as I was in the begging and I hate myself for that, I hate myself that I didn't notice this before and I'm crying I lost my baby girl and she doesn't seem to want to talk I'm not sure if she needs time out or needs space or isn't even ready for this or her mental health has taken over she has BPD bipolar ADHD anxiety and possibly some kind of autism there were mood swings and days where she couldn't get out of bed but I did my best to be there for her.... But then I also have been told she was talking to other guys online so I'm not sure what happened maybe she wasn't feeling fully happy and loved because of my depression and maybe she went looking for attention elsewhere and I'm not sure but we shared so many intimate moments and she told me everyday I was her daddy, the love of her life, the best daddy so I'm so confused and so sad....

(I could tell you our whole story but that will take a lot of pages if you want me to continue I will but I'm not sure if many people will read this)

** This was both our first real serious relationship and first time I've ever met a girl with this kind of personality age regression even though we were 15 years apart it felt so natural ** 

Thank you for your patience

[Princess snuggles]

I'm so sorry you're going through that. Life is difficult, breakups are difficult. However, please know partners even in CGL relationship are supposed to support and be there for each other. Daddy's, mummy's, and other CGs are human beings and human beings have struggles. You don't have to be perfect, depression is hard and loving a partner with it is hard but part of being a partner. 
 

I'm sorry, you're going through that, and I'm here if you ever want to talk, regardless of if it's happy, sad or any other emotion. You've found a community where you are welcome and people will be there forever you when and if you need it. 

[MasterPhotog]

11 hours ago, bigdaddyCG said:

I don't even know where to begin and plz forgive me if this post goes on and on but I need to vent. 

So it began about 2 years ago I met this most amazing cute young girl, I had been on my own for years, I had never met A girl like her before and this is before I learnt she had a whole other side to her. 

In one of our many online conversations I randomly asked could you ever call me daddyyyy I just like the name, I wasn't even thinking of what it means because I'd never heard of DDLG or CL or anything like that...

After a pause she responded,I have something to tell you, I like have this like part of me where I can become a child here I am confused, but as she explained it she had some psychological trauma as a child and as an adult she has times where she can involuntarily become a child or a toddler age, still perplexed... I decided to do some research and I started to understand she is actually an age regressor and this is actually one of her personalities this is not role playing and this is always apart of her even if she's not always in that child like state she is still childish in general. 

We talked a lot in depth about it and she felt safe enough to explain this to me and that she never really told anyone else not even her own mother. 

She said since we been talking her baby/little side has always been there in her head and she tells me that baby she calls her baby or baby girl and that she is really happy and getting closer to me and feels like I could be A good daddy for her. One night she says do you want to try talk to baby on the phone???

I'm like wow I'm not sure what to do but I guess I will try she tells me to talk to baby with cute baby words and things like daddy is here and that will help her come out to play.. it was a surreal experience it felt so amazing I felt so proud I could tell baby was there, baby was like dada hewwoo I'm like heeyy bub I'm so happy to meet you she's like giggle giggle squeaks and also a lot of non verbal mmmm mhm yea happy baby happy. 

I didn't know what I was in for, things grew over time we planned to meet she was still a grown woman and still looking for love and a relationship not just a daddy.

Sorry I'm going to have to summarise this other wise it will turn into pages and pages does anybody want to actually read a whole story or do I summarise it down either way my baby, the love of my life, the one I thought was my soul mate in the end she left and I have no idea why, I understand there was a lot of stress, a lot of things in our lives lately worried about ending up homeless, fertility issues, money issues, my depression might have ment I wasn't always as attentive as a daddy as I was in the begging and I hate myself for that, I hate myself that I didn't notice this before and I'm crying I lost my baby girl and she doesn't seem to want to talk I'm not sure if she needs time out or needs space or isn't even ready for this or her mental health has taken over she has BPD bipolar ADHD anxiety and possibly some kind of autism there were mood swings and days where she couldn't get out of bed but I did my best to be there for her.... But then I also have been told she was talking to other guys online so I'm not sure what happened maybe she wasn't feeling fully happy and loved because of my depression and maybe she went looking for attention elsewhere and I'm not sure but we shared so many intimate moments and she told me everyday I was her daddy, the love of her life, the best daddy so I'm so confused and so sad....

(I could tell you our whole story but that will take a lot of pages if you want me to continue I will but I'm not sure if many people will read this)

** This was both our first real serious relationship and first time I've ever met a girl with this kind of personality age regression even though we were 15 years apart it felt so natural ** 

Thank you for your patience

Thank you for sharing your grief here. I just wanted to say I’m really sorry you're going through this. Breakups are rough, there’s no easy way around it. It’s okay to feel sad, confused, or even angry. That’s all part of healing.

I know it probably doesn’t feel like it now, but this pain won’t last forever. Day by day, things will start to feel a bit lighter. You’ll make space for new things, new people, and most importantly, new parts of yourself to grow.

Don’t be too hard on yourself. Take your time. Be around people who care about you, and don’t feel like you have to rush to “get over it.” Just focus on taking care of yourself, one step at a time.

Take care and, even if it feels that way sometimes, you're not alone in this, feel free to reach out anytime. 

[bigdaddyCG]

It just hurts so much when the person you met and fell in love with and became daddy for seemed to change and become someone else, they tell you they love you and want to be with you forever, talk about having kids and grandkids but then that is all over they change. And I agree partners should support each other no matter what you are going through they shouldn't just leave when if gets hard !!!