BabyPoppy Posted September 22 Report Posted September 22 Hi my friends, I am really wrestling lately with scripture, church doctrine, and how ddlg/abdl all fit. I know these a huge topics and not easily boiled down to one post, message or even subject matter. It's deeply personal and unique to how each of us views God, Jesus, salvation, church doctrine, and who we are. So I wanna start with some fundamentals of what I believe, so you understand. If you disagree with me on these, I am happy to discuss with you and understand your viewpoint. 1. God is the Father, the Creator of all. He existed before all. 2. God is a Triune God - He exists as 3 separate parts, God the Father, God the Son - Jesus, and God the Holy Spirit. (For a visual model, think about ice cubes in a cup of water on a hot day. Ice -frozen God the Father, liquid water - God the Son - Jesus, the condensation on the outside of the cup signifying the evaporation of the water - God the Holy Spirt.) 3. Jesus is the Son of God. - Jesus was both fully human - born from Mary, and fully God - Spirit of God in him. He was here on Earth and did not sin, but died for the the sins of all. 4. Salvation is for all, through grace by the forgiveness of sins. First, recognize your own sinful nature, then admit your need for a Savior, ask for forgiveness, and accept the grave that is freely given. Nothing is too big to be forgiven. 5. I do attend a Christian Missionary Alliance Church. Our church doctrine is simple... read scripture, follow it, teach it to those around you and practice discipleship. Praise Jesus with all you have and show others how much they are loved. So lays my foundation! Obviously the laws and rules within the Bible are meant to be followed, but when Jesus comes in the New Testament, Matthew 22:35-40 "One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" Jesus replied, "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments." So, obviously (and after decades of study and research) I have come to understand that while, yes I need to follow all the rules of scripture, the purpose behind the rules and laws is most important! And that purpose is so that I can love God with all that I am, heart, soul and mind, and to love my neighbor as God loves me. So far are you following my logic? I hope so, I never did so well in logic in Trig or Calc... What's been deepest on my heart as of late is the role men and women play in scripture. Now freeze for just a minute... I do live in America and I understand we do things backwards, sideways and upside down most of the time. I advocate for so many different people groups, it's not funny, because if my Jesus came back today, I firmly believe he would totally rage against many of our Pharisees running things. I hope you remember the words LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF coz that actually means love your neighbor as if they were living in your home and had your needs, treat them as such! We do not do this here. At least not in my closeknit Christian community of 7000 people and 16 churches.... I see so much abuse, neglect, manipulation, rejection, greed, isolation, pain, and suffering from people here. I can't imagine what happens in larger communities. So my heart says, why can't I be happy? I just wanna be little and safe and find a Daddy to love me and care for me. Hopefully he likes kids and can look past my life history... but then a sermon arises that says something about divorce and not marrying again.... and I know I'm accepted because my divorce was to protect my children, but it says not to marry again, so am I to remain alone? I understand why. It is to love my children and to help them grow into healthy adults without putting my needs above theirs. I don't take turns with my kids or deserve happiness now. I choose to be happy and wait patiently until the time is right so my children know the love of God, too. Only it's so difficult to be alone in a couples only community where people pair up as soon as they split up. Again, my choice is my own and I find contentment with my online friends. Then another sermon hits, about wives submitting to their husband and this is one of the deepest longings of my heart. To truly have a husband who sees me and guides me in our relationship, but also in church. Who I can bring honor to by my service in the community, but my husband locked me up and didn't want me to be seen, or to work, or leave the house. I was an embarrassment to him. So was it me? It has been 9 years, and no one really stuck, so maybe I am the problem. But stop! No! 2 Corinthians 5:17 "I am a new creation. The old has gone the new has come." Another sermon... Ephesians 4: 14 - 15 "Then we will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming. Instead, speaking the truth in love we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is Christ." So no more baby? Gotta be big girl? Especially as a single girl... ummm woman? 💔 The picture posted was a grown-up ABDL little boy with a Mommy giving him a bottle in a cradle and everyone was disgusted (their word, not mine)... I'm very glad I was at home today... I know who I am and I don't believe anything is wrong with me. But does who I am separate me from my Savior? My Jesus? I've always believed that my child-like faith and innocence, which comes from my little self, is a huge asset to my faith because it allows me to love others unconditionally, forgive easily, and accept people as they are (unless they really are evil). I believe in, hope for, and love people even when they can't do it for themselves because the greatest commandments are to love God with everything, the love everyone else. But if I can't be me? Who am I? My faith is mature. Is that enough?
beanbean Posted September 22 Report Posted September 22 I think it is enough obviously I can’t speak for God but I do feel it is enough to love him and you neighbor and if you have a child like heart that I take is I a very good think Jesus said to be like a child I take that to mean pure of heart but who really know everything what with the Bible translations and such there are some differences in how everyone interprets it . But if you love God and fear him that’s most important I feel 1
BabyPoppy Posted September 22 Author Report Posted September 22 15 hours ago, beanbean said: I think it is enough obviously I can’t speak for God but I do feel it is enough to love him and you neighbor and if you have a child like heart that I take is I a very good think Jesus said to be like a child I take that to mean pure of heart but who really know everything what with the Bible translations and such there are some differences in how everyone interprets it . But if you love God and fear him that’s most important I feel Thanks Bean!
LittleBit0829 Posted October 7 Report Posted October 7 My Daddy and I are very active Christians in our church and community in fact my husband is the youth pastor at our church. We have been married 15 years, we are deep into this dynamic and both of us have had previous marriages. I left mine at the age 21 with 2 small babies... He was abusive and into child porn (I turned him in and he was in prison and everything).... My husband's ex wife left when he was stationed in Korea for another women, he had no say... God gives 2 reasons for divorce, unequally yoked, and infidelity...I have to believe and refuse to believe otherwise that I have always been a Christian and my ex was not... We were unequally yoked and I tried counseling and therapy to make him stop hurting me, doing drugs, and other things (including cheating) but he refused... Once I found child porn on his computer it was my children's safety and I had to leave...I say all that to say you can get married again! I encourage it... Finding a Godly husband who loves me and accepts all of me is like nothing I've ever experienced before... Submitting to your husband is the biggest blessing I have ever had We started off in a dominant submissive dynamic because it made sense with things that the Bible said and we were already pretty much doing it.... But we actually laid out a contract and everything and when he collared me The vowels we wrote to each other and our ceremony were 10 times more deep and personal than when we got married. My Daddy loves my little self and encourages my too be a little as I need to be with him always... He reads my Bible stories whole I curl up with him, he stays up late with me with I'm feeling insecure to hold me and speak God's affirmation and love over me. He had stopped his work day and left half day to help me when I feel overwhelmed at home. (I homeschool our 2 kids and have our grandson who is 2 often)... God has blessed our marriage so much! There is someone for you out there and God's timing is perfect! 1 1
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