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A supportive discussion group where members can openly share their: - Personal challenges - Feelings of loneliness - Moments of feeling down - Other The goal of this group is to provide: ✅ Personalized advice ✅ Motivation and encouragement ✅ A safe space to feel valued—completely judgement-free This group would focus on creating a warm, uplifting environment where everyone is heard and supported. 💛
  1. What's new in this club
  2. Hello everyone, Please join me in welcoming and congratulating @Dangerously_Well, as the new leader of our exciting group. On a personal note, I’m truly impressed by his care, compassion, and thoughtful nature, especially when it comes to supporting those who are going through difficult times or simply need someone understanding to listen. @Dangerously_Well, Welcome and best wishes!
  3. MasterPhotog

    Exhausted

    @LilPrincessPup Thank you for joining this group and posting this topic. I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all of this. It’s understandable that you’d feel insecure about it, but please know your worth isn’t tied to your teeth or any of your health struggles. You’re doing your best, and that’s something to be proud of. It sounds like you’ve had a really tough journey, but I’m glad you have such a loving DD and fiancé by your side. Don’t feel bad for the things you’re dealing with—sometimes life throws a lot at us, but you’re strong for facing it. Keep taking things one step at a time. And remember, you’re not alone. Thank you for sharing your story, it takes a lot of courage. Going forward, feel free to share what's on your mind, we're here to help you feel better. In the meantime, continue to stay strong!
  4. LilPrincessPup

    Exhausted

    Sometimes my genetic disorder makes me so so insecure. I've always done my bestest to take care of my teeths but I've always had severe cavities, to the point where my dentist had told my parents the only way my teeth could be that bad is if I was doing hard drugs at 12. It would make me so sad that I would bring my toothbrush everywhere and brush everytime I ate or drank something. Just to find out last year that I have a genetic disorder that makes my teeth have no enamel, which is the stuff that protects your teeths from cavities in the first place, and brushing too much just deteriorates them more. I has a visible cavity on my front tooth and while I appreciate it I hate when people tell me I have lipstick or food stuck on my tooth. Sometimes I'm happy and smiling comfortably and suddenly think "Dang I needs to shut my mouth, these peoples are probably disgusted by my teeths" because that's what so many people told me growing up, even my mom would tell me no one wants someone with messed up teeth like mine. She apologized after we figured out what was causing it but it doesn't change 11 years of telling me I would never find love because of my teeth. I'm lucky enough to have the most wonderful DD and Fiance I could ever know but I hate so much that he's burdened with my issues, as my teeth are bad yes, but on top of that he has to deal with my constant back pain caused by scoliosis, heart problems because I had an aneurysm, and severe hearing loss so I'm constantly saying "WHAT?" I constantly wish I could feel better and function like a normal human being but that's simply not possible and it's just a never ending exhausting cycle. Currently I'm looking for a permanent solution but even then dentures and implants are so expensive and I have "more important" appointments to attend to. Yet they also tell me that the dentist is the most important because in infection can spread. I is just so so so tired of these problems and I wish they would just go aways already Thank you for reading! Getting everything off my chest sometimes helps ⠀⠀⠀⠀⣀⡀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⢠⣤⡀⣾⣿⣿⠀⣤⣤⡄⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⢿⣿⡇⠘⠛⠁⢸⣿⣿⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠈⣉⣤⣾⣿⣿⡆⠉⣴⣶⣶⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⣾⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⣿⡀⠻⠟⠃⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠙⠛⠻⢿⣿⣿⣿⡇⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠈⠙⠋⠁⠀⠀⠀
  5. beanbean

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    The world at these times does seem bleak.but it will get better and you will carry piece of your loved ones forever and ever . Hopefully your flower beds is beautiful and you get a better job and hopefully you get to fly out there but even if you don’t I hope you find your peace
  6. CodeName: Trouble

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    Unfortunately we could not hold a funeral. They said the ground is too frozen to dig.. I don't want to think about all that means. I also wasn't given leave to grieve by my boss even with an obituary because there was no funeral, and I was also informed I'm losing my job soon and should essentially be thankful for any hours I get until then. (The business is closing) I'm hoping I'll figure out how to fly north for her birthday in a few months, when family is hosting a small celebration of life/reunion in her honor. That is looking financially bleak however. It was a bad year to decide to go back to school. I'm still not doing well at all, but I'm still trying. My rose bush and flowers are growing beautifully already and watching them grow gives me a bit of joy. My boyfriend continues to be amazing through this all and I'm very thankful for him. Allot is on my mind lately and I'm trying to find peace, but the world just feels pretty bleak right now and I'm not catching much of a break on any front. 😔 Might need to plant some more flowers.
  7. MasterPhotog

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    Sorry for the late reply. I hope the funeral went as well as it could, and that you're feeling a bit better now, knowing that her pain and suffering are finally over. One of the best ways to honor her memory is by keeping her love and support alive—by focusing on doing what's best for you, and what makes you happy and strong. Wishing you all the best, always!
  8. beanbean

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    A memorial garden that’s a great idea . Always happy to listen to our friends fer sure !!!
  9. HopeMuffin

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    @CodeName: Trouble *Sending great big bear hug* I'm sorry for the heavy weight of darkness and pain you're trudging through. What you're doing to memorialize her is truly beautiful. Everyone grieves in their own way. Thank you for sharing this with us; I empathize with your situation. Fuck your boss* *Ik jobs are important. But this person you've lost means more than your meany boss.
  10. PigtailPrincess

    Doing The Work (TW Childhood abuse/trauma)

    Thank you friend!!!
  11. Dangerously_Well

    Doing The Work (TW Childhood abuse/trauma)

    Very proud of you!
  12. PigtailPrincess

    Doing The Work (TW Childhood abuse/trauma)

    UPDATE: So on top of EMDR (we are doing the first real REAL session of it Tuesday) but we are also doing IFS (Internal Family Systems) which I think is am amazing combo and I feel really blessed to have found it in a therapist. So we did the first intense IFS session last week and we targeted my 13 year old self. She sits and reads or studies, she doesn't acknowledge words of "It gets better! Things are good! We are safe!" Like not a twitch just a sideways look and continues her escape. Tonight while meal prepping (of all fucking times?!?!?) I all of a sudden had a thpugh and I said to her "It's ok, we can fix you. It's fixable." And she fucking broke. Just a tear and a look but... it was a different look and fuck it tore me apart. This all is so hard and I keep getting more and more frustrated with the people who had a huge hand in puting me here. I am crying and meal prep is half done but I'm ok. Just an update from the land of Pigtail.
  13. @kuuchan I'm sorry to hear that you're dealing with extreme anxiety due to a possible health scare. It's disheartening that the nurses aren't taking your concerns seriously and are being dismissive. It seems that you’ve been communicating with the clinic over the phone rather than in person. Unfortunately, while they’re willing to speak with you on the phone, it appears they may be dismissing you because they don’t stand to gain financially from you as a paying client or through insurance coverage. It's deeply upsetting that while the medical system excels at addressing physical illnesses, it often falls short when it comes to supporting the mental well-being and emotional needs of individuals. Although I’m not a professional or connected to the healthcare field, I encourage you to reach out to someone who might be able to help—perhaps a social worker, counselor, or a trusted member of your local community. They could take the time to listen to your concerns and, without expecting financial gain, offer guidance or advocate on your behalf within the medical system. In the meantime, please stay strong and continue to be kind and loving to yourself and definitely stay away from s*lf h*rming yourself. Remember . . . you're loved, you're enough, you're special, and matter, just as you're! Sending you a big virtual hug! 🤗
  14. I truly wish we as people knew how to deal with us as people answering basic questions could have reassured you. Being scared is natural here but whatever the answer is on your heath can’t give up and have to fight like hell . You got this!!
  15. Thank you so much for your genuine response @Dangerously_Well, i feel really embarrassed right now (which happens everytime i have one of these mental episodes). ❤️ But i was finally able to see a doctor, they were very nice and understanding. Crisis is averted, I am fine and have nothing to worry about it seems. The fear was very real for me, and it took me all day yesterday to "get over it", even after being told by a doctor that i was fine and had nothing to worry about
  16. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It sounds like you're dealing with a lot of fear and anxiety, and it's understandable to feel overwhelmed and alone. Please know that you're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. It's incredibly brave of you to reach out and share your experiences here. It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, especially when you're feeling scared and dismissed. It's not "stupid" at all to feel anxious about a possible health scare. Our health is incredibly important, and it's natural to worry when we're feeling unwell. It's especially frustrating when medical professionals don't seem to take our concerns seriously. I have found that people sometimes freeze when talking to healthcare professionals, two possible solutions. Can you take someone with you, to talk for you and act as an advocate, and if that's not possible, write down beforehand everything you want to say, and if they start being dismissive pass on the letter, that way everything is being said without the pressure of being overwhelmed by their dismissiveness. I'm so sorry to hear that you relapsed and self-harmed. Please know that you're not alone in this, and there are resources available to help you cope with these difficult emotions. It's important to remember that you are strong and resilient, even when you're feeling scared and vulnerable. Please be kind to yourself and reach out for support when you need it. You don't have to go through this alone. Sending you love and strength. 💖
  17. i've been so incredibly anxious for days about a possible health scare, but the nurses aren't taking me seriously and they did not care that i mentioned that this was causing me so much anxiety and distress that i could barely get out of bed this morning i relapsed yesterday and s*lf h*rmed after a looong time, to ease the anxiety even for a second. it's so stupid. the health thing could very well be nothing. i could be completely fine. but because the nurses at the clinic were so dismissive and nobody will have a look at it, i live in this huge anxious fear that i'm going to die. i'm so scared and alone. i need to wait till morning until i'm allowed to call the clinic again.
  18. MasterPhotog

    First meltdown of the year

    @littlekai, It's okay to take your time to process your recent meltdown. @beanbean has offered a great advice: if you’re not already doing so, please start making notes after meltdowns to identify patterns and possible solutions can help you regain some control and better manage future episodes. Stay strong.
  19. beanbean

    First meltdown of the year

    I don’t think you’re strange we all process differently and what’s small to some of us can be a big deal. Have you thought of making note’s after the meltdowns to look for patterns and solutions? It might help
  20. Adhd Meltdowns are quite common for me but the one I had on the weekend was one of the worst to the point were its Monday and I still haven't physically talked it's happend before but not in a long time and it was over somthing that seemes so stupid am I the only one that's just mute after a meltdown or am I just strange lol
  21. Dangerously_Well

    What is wrong with me? (Trigger Warning!)

    I'm so sorry you're going through this. It sounds like you've experienced a lot of pain and hurt, and it's understandable to feel overwhelmed and unlovable. Please know that you're not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to support you. It's incredibly brave of you to share your experiences and feelings here. It takes a lot of courage to be vulnerable, especially when you've been hurt in the past. You're absolutely right that people with mental health challenges deserve love and connection just as much as anyone else. It's not fair or accurate to say that relationships are only for those who are "at their best." Healing is a journey, not a destination, and you deserve support and companionship along the way. It's also understandable to feel frustrated and hurt by the people you've encountered who haven't treated you with respect and kindness. It's not your fault that you've been taken advantage of. You deserve to be with someone who values you for who you are and cherishes your vulnerability. The situation with the person who took your virginity sounds particularly painful. It's okay to feel confused and betrayed by their actions. You're right to prioritize your own well-being and set boundaries with people who don't align with your values. It's important to remember that not everyone is like the people you've encountered in the past. There are kind, compassionate, and genuine people out there who will appreciate your sensitivity and treat you with respect. Please don't give up on finding love and connection. It might take time, but you deserve to be with someone who sees your worth and cherishes your heart. Here are a few suggestions that might help: Focus on self-love and healing: Continue your self-improvement journey and prioritize your mental health. Therapy, support groups, and self-care practices can be incredibly helpful. Set boundaries: Don't be afraid to say no to people and situations that don't feel right. Protect your energy and prioritize your well-being. Find supportive communities: Connect with people who understand and accept you for who you are. This forum is a great place to start, and there are many other online and in-person communities where you can find support and friendship. (I have had, friends, and little's in the past that have been through horrible trauma, and have been fortunate enough to assist them in their journey of growth from that, I offer my ear and shoulder if you wish.) Don't rush into anything: Take your time getting to know people and building trust. It's okay to be cautious and protect your heart. Remember, you are worthy of love and belonging. Don't let past experiences define your future. Keep believing in yourself and the possibility of finding genuine connection. Sending you love and strength. 💖
  22. MasterPhotog

    What is wrong with me? (Trigger Warning!)

    @pandaprincess29, Thank you for sharing your feelings so openly and honestly. Your words reflect the depth of your pain, frustration, and self-awareness. I want you to know that your feelings are valid. It takes courage to express what you’ve been through, and I deeply respect you for that. You’ve faced so much, and despite the challenges, you’re demonstrating resilience by working on yourself and continuing your journey of self-improvement. This path is not easy, but the effort you’re putting in is meaningful and valuable, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. Healing is not linear, and it’s okay to have moments when everything feels overwhelming. What you’ve shared about your relationships and how people have treated you is heartbreaking. I’m so sorry you’ve experienced such hurt. You deserve to be loved and valued for who you are, not for what you can give or do for someone else. Feeling manipulated or vulnerable in those situations doesn’t make you naive or weak—it highlights the complexity of seeking connection while carrying past wounds. You are not at fault for wanting love and genuine connection; that’s something we all long for. The way this person handled your situation—especially withholding their true feelings until later is definitely unfair and hurtful. It’s natural to feel betrayed or manipulated when someone’s actions don’t align with their words, particularly when intimacy is involved. Your instincts about what feels right or wrong in relationships are valid, and it’s okay to trust them. It’s also okay to step back from people who don’t honor your boundaries or your worth. Your self-awareness is clear, and it’s a strength, even though it might feel like a double-edged sword at times. You, like anyone in a similar situation, are not "unlovable" or "an easy target." Trauma may make us more vulnerable, but it does not define your worth or your ability to create healthier relationships in the future. You’re learning to navigate this, and even when it feels like you’re taking a step backward, it’s all part of the process. Please be kind and gentle with yourself. You’re not alone in this, and there are people who want to support you in ways that are respectful and compassionate. If it feels overwhelming to process everything on your own, reaching out to a trusted therapist or someone supportive might provide clarity and relief. You don’t have to carry all of this by yourself. Above all, remember that you are worthy of love and respect exactly as you are—not when you’re "better" or "perfect," but in this very moment. Please continue to take care of yourself and staying strong.
  23. Hello everyone. I’m understanding that this is a very kind and welcoming space. Regardless, I can’t help but feel shame for even writing something like this. Before I continue I wanted to first address what I think most people are going to say in an attempt to make me feel better. Yes, I know I am young. Nonetheless that doesn’t mean that I WANT to spend the rest of my life dealing with what I am as of now. Mentioning my youth will only make me feel as if unlike others I’ve seen, I for some reason, have to wait to be loved. It’s very othering and I don’t like it. Okay. Now that that’s out of the way. I’ve been through a lot. No that isn’t a challenge. I have a lot of trauma and as a result I’ve been diagnosed with many things. C-PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, and BPD to be exact. Sadly, I’m used to not being happy but lately it’s been debilitating. I’m still on my self-improvement journey when it comes to going through life as someone with severe mental health problems. I think as much as I want to be loved by someone, the process of looking has made me realize not only how hard I am to deal with but how easy it is for me to be taken advantage of due to low self-esteem. Some people have this belief that the LAST thing people who are struggling mentally need is a relationship. I can understand that if the person struggling isn’t actively working on themselves. I am, but regardless I think to say something like that is very wrong, as it implies people can only be loved at their very best and obviously for people with mental health disorders it’s not a linear process. Almost every potential romantic partner I’ve encountered has wanted me for sexual pleasure, affection, and to stroke their ego. Nothing more. They know that because of my BPD I get attached and will do anything to please someone I love and someone I want to love me. I’ve grown severely sick of it because there hasn’t been a moment in my romantic life where someone has had good intentions when it comes to me. I’m starting to feel like giving up on looking but I think that if I do I’ll give up on every form of close relationships in fear that everyone is horrible because in my life that’s what it’s been. Either horrible one-sided interactions or loneliness. I’m fine with being alone but I can’t be lonely. That is a recipe for disaster. Recently I was told by someone that they want to be in a relationship, just not with me. And that they’re open to being very close friends. I would’ve been okay with this if this person hadn’t taken my virginity and never disclosed this information until MONTHS afterwards. Personally, I’m struggling with mentally processing this because I don’t sleep with my friends. I’ve never been a “sneaky link” or “FWB” type of person. I purely thought this was part of vetting. It’s hard for me to cut off this person because I feel like if I do, my first time that I consented to actively would be another showcase of my own naivety. This is hard because every sexual experience I’ve had prior has been non-consensual. I know most people don’t have a “good” first time or even still speak to the person they were active with anymore but that’s not necessarily my issue. I simply cannot shake the feeling that I was manipulated. Upon first meeting, this person told me they would be open to dating if after a couple of in-person dates/hang outs they were interested. I didn’t think that one of those meetings would involve sex but because I wanted them to like me I was down. Out of nowhere they started behaving differently and when I called out their behavior they just flat out said that they cared about me but didn’t like me romantically and the main reason they stated it was a possibly to do so was because they genuinely believed that to be true….maybe I’m just hurt but that sounds ridiculous. I truly believe that if I’d never said anything about them acting differently, we would’ve continued to be sexual as “friends” and that’s the LAST thing I wanted. They also said they see sex and dating as two different things and that’s how I KNOW it’s all lies. Yes there are people who can do no strings but there is genuinely no difference from our situation and dating besides the labeling or lack there of. This person reached out TO ME at the end of the day. I promise you this specific situation isn’t my sole reason for feeling unlovable (I’d rather not talk about the others because it’s traumatic) but it is my last straw. My confirmation. I can no longer take being this vulnerable anymore. It’s making me hate myself and everyone else. I just don’t think I can trust myself to determine whether or not a person is trustworthy or genuine. I’m not stupid. I’m just traumatized and I like to hope that people can have grace and treat me normal. I’m obviously just an easy target and I need to stop putting myself in these positions. That’s all.
  24. CodeName: Trouble

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    I got the call this morning, she passed and is no longer hurting 😔 I spent today in the dirt planting rose bushes, which she had also planted in her yard the day I was born. I'm working on a memorial garden, and got a stain glass cardinal (her favorite) with an LED inside to sit and light up the night among the soon to be flowers. I also hung some extra family pictures and lit some candles. I've been staying busy, in some ways I'm less sad now that it's over, and in some ways it's worse. It really comes in waves, some more like tsunamis. Don't know about the funeral plans yet and my boss won't give me leave without an obituary in hand.. so that kind of sucks. Thanks for letting me vent guys, I appreciate it.
  25. CodeName: Trouble

    Having a bad time (TW: loss)

    The silence in the house is deafening while I wait for the call. I got ahold of the hospital/hospice or whatever last night and they held up the phone for me as I said what will be an insufficient goodbye. I hope she heard me. I am thankful I got the chance still, but it did very little to help the feeling. Now I just sit in agony, the inevitable looming. There is no hope, only crushing sadness. I tried to check my voicemail, to hear the silly messages that she used to leave me, but it was empty. I went through my photos and only have 2 of her... it isn't enough. I am so sad. Every time I calm down the world crashes on me again and I crumple. I keep thinking the feeling can't get worse, but I'm always wrong. You're right... i'm not sure being there would be better. It might have made things way harder in some ways 😔 thank you for being such a good bean ❤️ Thank you ❤️ We will see 😢 I shouldn't be so worried about the relationship thing, i'm just being extra insecure because other feelings 🥺He has been amazing and mostly understanding even when my mood is all over the place. H e yelled at me for trying to deal with stuff myself ❤️‍🩹I couldn't ask for a better guy. I'm not sure what steps forward would even look like... but i'm sure he will be with me through it. Neither of us have had the misfortune of going through this inevitable part of life before though so it's all very unknown and scary. I really appreciate you all, thank you.
  26. beanbean

    Thank you

    No need to be nervous no judgement spaces are meant to be welcoming.so welcome
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