I did a mess (! kinda triggering !)

[MilkyBerry]

So... I'm currently hospitalized due to my super low weight.
My boyfriend/daddy stays with me almost all the day and I was starting to get bored... (being all the day closed in a room with the same person for almost 2 months is kinda exhausting) ;-;
During my stay I met a nurse who's really into bondage: he's 48 and I'm 20... I started to grow feelings for him.
Yesterday my daddy wasn't here and the nurse visited me even if he didn't have to work and we went out for a walk around the hospital with his dog   he held my hand and my heart was exploding with happiness... when we returned to the hospital we took an elevator and he kissed me, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I really like him. I felt alive, I felt like he was my everything.
As soon as I came back in my room, my daddy was there and I couldn't help but tell him I just kissed another man (I like to be open, I don't want to lie to the person who's by my side since four years)

He started screaming, throwing things at me and calling me a slut, then he left saying I deserve to die in this hospital. I'm alone, far away from home (I was living with him far far away from my parents) and I don't have any money...
So, messing things up with him left me without a home, without money and without anyone. My daddy threatened me to call the police because the nurse "harassed me" and talked to him. He is now not allowed to come to my room and/or speak to me ever again.
I'll be seeing him walking around the hospital almost everyday... and not being allowed to talk to him is making me want to kill myself.
I'll probably die anyway because my health keeps getting worse day by day, but... I don't want my life to end like this.
Sorry for the rant...
 

[Princess-P]

Well, I'd love to say something positive but I got nothing. You did so something wrong and I don't blame him for leaving you with nothing. I would do the same thing. He could have done it without the temper tantrum.

 

The part about the nurse not being allowed in your room... Makes no sence. First off your an adult, you choose who you see. And if he had actually gotten in trouble it would be worse then not being allowed in your room. At the very least he would be on forced leave while they investigated patient abuse.

[TallNerd]

So... I'm currently hospitalized due to my super low weight.

My boyfriend/daddy stays with me almost all the day and I was starting to get bored... (being all the day closed in a room with the same person for almost 2 months is kinda exhausting) ;-;

During my stay I met a nurse who's really into bondage: he's 48 and I'm 20... I started to grow feelings for him.

Yesterday my daddy wasn't here and the nurse visited me even if he didn't have to work and we went out for a walk around the hospital with his dog   he held my hand and my heart was exploding with happiness... when we returned to the hospital we took an elevator and he kissed me, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I really like him. I felt alive, I felt like he was my everything.

As soon as I came back in my room, my daddy was there and I couldn't help but tell him I just kissed another man (I like to be open, I don't want to lie to the person who's by my side since four years)

He started screaming, throwing things at me and calling me a slut, then he left saying I deserve to die in this hospital. I'm alone, far away from home (I was living with him far far away from my parents) and I don't have any money...

So, messing things up with him left me without a home, without money and without anyone. My daddy threatened me to call the police because the nurse "harassed me" and talked to him. He is now not allowed to come to my room and/or speak to me ever again.

I'll be seeing him walking around the hospital almost everyday... and not being allowed to talk to him is making me want to kill myself.

I'll probably die anyway because my health keeps getting worse day by day, but... I don't want my life to end like this.

Sorry for the rant...

 

You messed up. I would of done the same thing as your boyfriend. You had a good man, you should of known better.

Your boyfriend sees you every single day and it is like you didn't even care.

 

Call your parents, they will see you. Don't give up on your health

[TallNerd]

Well, I'd love to say something positive but I got nothing. You did so something wrong and I don't blame him for leaving you with nothing. I would do the same thing. He could have done it without the temper tantrum.

 

The part about the nurse not being allowed in your room... Makes no sence. First off your an adult, you choose who you see. And if he had actually gotten in trouble it would be worse then not being allowed in your room. At the very least he would be on forced leave while they investigated patient abuse.

Fraternizing with patients is not allowed in the healthcare settings.

[HeCallsMePrincess]

how in the hell did all this happen in a hospital? I'm sorry, I don't believe this. not even a little bit.

[Guest NeedToServe]

That nurse needs sacking immediately and I feel sorry for your poor ex for taking all that time out of his life to stay with you in hospital only to have you cheat on him. Sorry but you will get literally no sympathy from me.

[Spooky]

She obviously realized she had done something wrong, hence her telling her boyfriend. She didn't post here to be judged by total strangers. She posted looking for help and advice. I don't believe condoning the boyfriends actions (verbally abusing her and throwing things at her) is not okay at all.

 

We have ALL made mistakes. 

I do believe that some of you need to stick with the golden rule of "If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all"

 

That being said, listen to TallNerd, talk to you parents, try and get their help and support, I wish you a speedy and safe recovery. 
 

[Guest QueenJaylen]

Yeah Spooky is right it doesn't matter who does and doesn't believe you it is what it is anyway he had no right to talk to you like that you make mistakes granted you were wrong and you were selfishly thinking when you kissed that nurse which I'm pretty sure is illegal right? anyway I hope you learned from it and I hope you get well soonhttp://hbirthdaywishes.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/06/get-well-soon-my-friend.png

[TimidLittlePupen]

I generally attempt to mind my own business unless it involves family or close friends, but my big tissy and I were both reading this and agree, she couldn't have pushed the nurse off even if she didn't want the kiss and didn't have feelings for him.  And technically the nurse initiated the kiss. While We think she shouldn't have done so while she was still with her daddy, that gave him absolutely NO right to throw a piss-fit, screaming at her and throwing things.  She's in the hospital for God's sake and is really sick and didn't deserve that regardless of what she did.  Plus she's young and frankly, there are a lot of worse things she could have done.  She's sick, really sick from what she's saying, and frankly, none of us know her situation fully nor well enough to tell her she deserves what she got. Yes it's true that doctors/nurses aren't supposed to fraternize with their patient but if he can make her feel happy and alive, when she's been this sick and feeling dead for so long, who are we to judge.  As my tissy and I read this and the way some of you have responded to her, my tissy was infuriated, and I had to break myself out of deep little space just to get this reply out properly.  For those of you who are saying that MilkyBerry is bad and deserved what she got, for shame on all of you, you should feel bad for being cruel to this poor hospitalized girl.

 

And to MilkyBerry, my tissy and I are praying for you.  We hope with all our hearts that you make a speedy recovery and that God and/or whoever you worship  smiles down apon you and blesses you in all the wonderful ways that you deserve.  We hope that life brings you much happiness.

[Princess-P]

I don't think any one meant that she deserved the way he acted. He could have just left without the fit. But no one should stick around when someone is willing to cheat, even if they admit it and tell the truth about what happened.

 

If she's attracted to the nurse and they have some kind of feelings toward each other then great. She could have gone about it differently. No still means no but it doesn't sound like she protested the kiss. If she wants to see this nurse then so be it. But in my opinion there's no way to get her ex Daddy back and everyone has to deal with the decisions they made.

 

Getting healthy is number one. Then Pursuing a relationship number two.

 

And as for the nurse/paitent fraternizing its acceptable here as long as the nurse is not caring for that paitent. Work and personal lives cant cross. So if he took advantage of her he should be out of a job, if he didnt he should be able to visit her on his off duty hours. At least here anyway. Maybe its different whete the OP is.

[MilkyBerry]

Guys I know I did something wrong, see the name of this thread ;_; "a mess" is the right term...
Btw my daddy is still with me because he wants to be here if I die... and I know it's kinda hard to believe that all these things happened in a hospital, I find it surreal too!
I saw the nurse yesterday and he had lunch with me (I have to be supervised cause I'm tubed and I could choke when I eat terrible... but eating baby food while supervised puts me in little space sooo easily eheh) and maybe he'll have dinner with me too...
I really want to be his friend because he puts me in such a good mood and makes my hospital stay easier...
So yesterday during lunch time I talked to him and I asked him if he kissed me because it's me or he would have kissed another girl too if she was in that elevator... and he said it would have happened with everyone. It's kinda hard to accept, I should be angry and hate him but I still feel like I need him by my side. 
This situation sucks ;__; thanks to everyone who wished me to get well! I hope to be better soon!

[Guest Tag you're it]

Wow. No. If you call someone daddy and you betray their trust, that's crap, unless they are mistreating you. You're lucky he is even there at all. If I get a small crush on someone, I distance myself immediately and surround myself immediately with my partner so I know I am theirs. It's called self control. Even as a little who needs guidance you need self control, you aren't exempt from it.

 

 

Hope things work out for your health.

[honeyboy]

You didn't deserve the way he treated you. Cheating wasn't right, but the things he said to you are more unforgivable than what you did - and I'm 100% against cheating. In his situation I would be hurt, yes, but he could break up with you and still be there for you as a friend, because it sounds like you need one. Again, you didn't deserve that.

 

But to be honest the nurse doesn't sound like someone you should be with either. Even if you weren't his patient, he's in a position of power, and this sort of thing is usually out of the question. I'm surprised he hasn't faced harsher consequences. He's much older than you too. You're an adult, but you're also vulnerable at the moment. It's of course your choice and I don't mean to be patronising, just please think carefully before you pursue any kind of relationship with him, even friendship. After what he said about the kiss too... He doesn't seem like a great guy.

 

I really hope your health improves. Focus on that, prioritise your recovery above everything else. You're more important than these guys. Take care of yourself xxx

[littlelili]

Wow. No. If you call someone daddy and you betray their trust, that's crap, unless they are mistreating you. You're lucky he is even there at all. If I get a small crush on someone, I distance myself immediately and surround myself immediately with my partner so I know I am theirs. It's called self control. Even as a little who needs guidance you need self control, you aren't exempt from it.

 

 

Hope things work out for your health.

I couldn't agree more.

However, you should focus on your health for a moment. Try to overcome things step by step. First improve your health, mental and physical. Then try to clear your mind about your feelings. Maybe you are not in love as you think you were. You disrespected your daddy, and this time you should assume the consequences as an adult.  That means losing daddy, and assuming your mistake.

Get in contact with your family, they will take care of you from now..

As for the nurse, think a bit about it... he was not professional, and he crossed the line too fast, maybe he is used to that, you don't need an easy man like that. It is not good for you.