Guest Isabelle Posted March 28, 2017 Report Share Posted March 28, 2017 So . . . basically I'm almost 31 and never had a relationship Not ever. I've been trying to meet lots of people and I joined here a few months back but I'm having a hard time with not finding anyone who fits or someone who doesn't ghost away. I keep hearing "just wait" "be patient" "someone special is out there for you" and all that but I've wanted a boyfriend for like 17 years and it's getting really hard for me to have self-esteem and stuff because I can't find someone. Lots of weirdos out there on the internet . . . decent guys I seem to meet are either taken, not into ddlg, or it stays friendship, etc. I seem to meet people okay online but I don't know what I'm doing wrong? I try to be nice and friendly and I'm available to chat a lot and stuff and I hate being told "just wait" or "someday" by people. I don't want to seem all desperate or anything but its really hurting that I'm getting so old and I feel like nobody will ever want to be with me who I want to be with too. I do have anxiety challenges and home situation challenges, but even online I can't meet a daddy. I feel like I should be a worthwhile person I get scared going places like the store but my mind is smart. I'm struggling really bad with feeling like I'm a good person because even after three colleges in my 20s and high school and being involved in my church in the past I never even found a vanilla relationship. I know I don't want to rush but it's been 17 years already and I'm losing hope People can take things so much for granted, I haven't even had my first kiss yet. So many people have marriage and kids and love and they don't know how special that can be and how lucky they are. I get sadder and sadder and I don't want to show it because I'm sure it's a 'turn off' but what are ways I can cope better? I'm in therapy working on things but I still have really down days and I'm trying to feel like a good person but I wind up feeling worthless. Just because I may not be 'ideal' doesn't mean I should be thrown away . . . but it feels like I am. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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