My Princess Dumped Me

[wargod06]

Me (now 21 M) and my now ex-fiance (now 21 F)  (who has severe depression) have been broken up now since April 11th 2018. We used to do gymnastics together back in middle school but that was it, then in college we re-met and it just took off it was perfect. Since then we didn't spend a moment apart we slept over every night and our first night apart was about 6 months later. On our first date February 12th 2016 I got her a pink princess bear with a heart that read princess and the year on its foot and she loved it beyond anything I could hope for. She slept with it every night and I slept with my princess every night. It became such a big thing in our relationship and every year I would get her a new pink princess stuffy (In other stuffies I got her over 200 and we didn't have room for most of them and she felt sad that she couldn't take care of all of them). November 16th 2016 I proposed to her did a big thing had everyone come down and light floating lanterns out on the beach and recreated the boat scene from tangled in our own way she said yes and it was so happy. (she loves Disney) About 4 months into our relationship ( about the same time we said I love you for the first time) I bought us platinum annual passes to Disney world and we went a lot about 3 to 4 times a month. There was a bunch of littler things that happened throughout but that would take forever. Long story short most of my life we did together and everything new and fun and exciting we started with each other I made her my life and nothing else was done with out her and I loved it. We got so close with each other I knew everything about her I love her.

 

She got me into dd-lg about a month into our relationship (she was the first and only person I had sex with although she didn't know that) although it wasn't just with the bedroom we did a lot of experimenting and growing together with it and it just came one night when she called me daddy in bed and it grew into this huge thing that no one say coming. It was both our first times with it. She taught me so much about care and I just tried to make her as happy as possible. Some nights it was more than others she rarely called me daddy but it was always there whether it was just coloring Disney princesses together that I would print out or spending a week end at Disney doing what ever she wanted and buying her what ever she wanted she was my princess to me always and from day one that's what I called her 'princess'. She was a very spoiled princess I made her that was and I loved it. we had a lot of stuff together with dd-lg and more than that she was my family 'ohana' and that was big for me. It was my life now and there was no one I would rather spend it with then her forever. I don't think I can move on from it it was so special between us. She made it special and I hope I made it special for her. I just tried to make her happy at all times.

 

When we met she smoked weed about twice a month and drank even less than that and I was fine with that but then it started getting worse about a year in she was doing it every night and if I asked her to stop for just one night we had a big fight and nothing was resolved. Those were a majority of our fights and it lasted that way for the rest of the relationship. She is more of the hippy spiritual type and I'm fine with that and I love it about her (and I was a mixture between redneck and hippy) but I didn't want things to go over board with drugs she acted different on them and she knew I didn't like it I just didn't want to be around it and for a little while she respected that but she still did it anyways and her best friend encouraged it along with a lot worse stuff like acid or coke. When she went to festivals with her friend I told her please don't do acid I'm fine if you smoke weed but please don't do it I don't want to be with someone who does that basically the choice me or drugs and she didn't do it (we had a big fight about that) but about a year later at the same festival she did even though when I asked her not to she came back home and told me she did it and her and her friend were discussing it and said she thought I was going to brake up with her (I would have but I love her so I couldn't) but regardless she did it anyway (this was near the end). I didn't want to be around it and she knew that but that wasn't enough. (These were the only bad times we had)

 

I miss her so much she didn't give me a reason for the break up just that she wasn't happy and she hasn't been happy for a while now about a year and broke it off over text. Since we had been living together now for about 2 years the moving out process was long and hard but we got through it. and ever since that day I have been cuddling with the first princess bear every night basically pretending that its her. She wont talk to me at all and it's been hard (and I know its still hard for her too) and I was just asking for help or advise I still love her and I want to be with her the rest of my life.

Edited August 5, 2018 by wargod06

[Guest Aetherr]

hey!, i just want you to know i feel your pain my first relationship (vanilla) lasted 6 whole years and it was some of the best and worst times of my life! what i will say is it will take time i had to take 2 whole years to get over the worst of the pain and even now about 3-4 years later it still hurt like a fucking bitch but you have to pick yourself back up the alternative is just to wallow in the past when life is passing you by. By all mean take as long as you need to get accustomed to being single but please dont let it be all you think about seriously, get out there and do things find a hobby or make new friends the best thing you can do is put it out of your mind you have to think about it this way if she could drop you like that with no good reason you have to realise that you werent happy in that relationship either so all in all both of you are free from something that upset you both

 

 

tldr: i've been there! neither of you were happy it seems, take some time to get yourself together then go find distractions and try to move on, dwelling on the past wont help you have a happy future

[wargod06]

Thanks, I have been trying to go back and do stuff I never did when we were together like go back to PC gaming and playing piano (I've been doing pretty good with it). Also a lot of my focus is going to my job now I'm even about to get a promotion. Its just hard at night. and I don't really have any friends or go out at all so this is the only time I've talked about it. Plus with her being the only person in my life it makes it harder for me to do stuff. I just want it to stop hurting.

[Kaiser]

Sounds like you inadvertently escaped a major train wreck in progress.

 

Be happy for that.

[Guest DuckDaddy66]

 

 

I miss her so much she didn't give me a reason for the break up just that she wasn't happy and she hasn't been happy for a while now about a year and broke it off over text.

 

That sucks.  My ex wife did the same thing with an email with me years ago. I called it being eScrewed.   A couple of things from this old man.  Your first break up sucks.  It really sucks.  Then divorce is far far worse. So it terms of being low, it's bad and be glad you did not get married. 

 

She never resolved her own feelings with you as a person or as little.  While smoking weed is not good or bad, it's a way of escape.

She was a brat and maybe not the right kind of little for you.  

 

My best advice is to let her go. Letting her go will allow you to examine your own self and what you want in your next relationship.  Now letting her go does not mean you don't have to date her again, but you need to come to your own terms.  This  will give you an opportunity to see what you want in your next relationship.