I’m here, writing this to you, because the thoughts rolling around in my mind require a response.
My personal life is developed. There are no kids, but I have been married for two years. I’ve been going to the community college and I am halfway to my associates degree. I’ve known my husband for about a decade and I can’t imagine a life without him and I don’t want to. However, I’m concerned because I can’t stop thinking about being a submissive and a little.
As a couple, we are very vanilla. My husband is aware of my submissive tendencies and tries to explore it occasionally, but doesn’t seem like he is all that interested. I appreciate his effort, he is extremely special to me. I just don’t know what to do about my desires. I should probably ignore them and feel special and blessed with what I have.
In school this past year, I have significantly built up my confidence. I learned quite a bit about having a positive attitude, avoiding the OK plateau (which is essentially settling with what you are or what you have) and having a growth mindset. I’ve also learned about cognitive distortions, which have really brought about a whole new world of thoughts through my mind.
The cognitive distortions really impacted me. It mind sound a bit dramatic, but I’ve been considering what is real and what is just my perception of things. Specific things, like being a little, and a sub, to a daddy. It should be said that these are only thoughts that I have been having the past year, I have no real experience with these dynamic relationships.
I’d like to understand how little/daddy dynamic is in reality. What I envision is pretty extreme, 24/7 care and command. To me, It doesn’t really sound fair to a daddy to have that sort of desire. Isn't too selfish and unrealistic?