Sorry for such a long post ehehe
I've been a little for quite a long time, had 2 boyfriends and they were veri negative when I told them about my little space and my preferences. They said it's gross, cringy, that I should get some help and it left me really traumatized about telling anyone about my little side. I kept it as a huge secret.
I met my current boyfriend a couple months ago, I love him a lot but him not knowing about it is a huge problem for me. Our relationship would be so much better if he knew. I've never told him, I've never called him daddy directly but I think he might be into it too.
I am so scared of telling him, for last 2 or 3 months I've been trying to see his reactions to certain things, I allowed myself to go into little space around him, to do some little things around him and see his reactions, if it was positive, negative or neutral. I've been doing it for quite a long time but I won't stop until I'm 100% sure he won't say anything negative or reject me.....
But here are some things that make me feel that he might be into ddlg too:
~ i sometimes call him mom (if i can't call him daddy at least i'll call him mom and say it's for jokes...), he almost always replies "i'm not your mom, i am your dad". it makes me scream inside.
~ he loves when i sit on his lap
~!!!!!!he calls himself daddy!!!!!!, i have no idea if it's seriouz or not, mostly when he's drunk or high, does it count???
~ he bought me 2 stuffies so far
~ he spanks me a lot
~ he's into bdsm, we do rapeplay, he might be into ddlg as well
~ he often picks me up, my big self hates it but my little self loves it
~ he likes my littlespace outfits and hairstyles
~ he called me little girl exactly one time
~ i draw for him and he likes it, keeps it, it makes me feel little
~ he's a ducking weeb so chances of him being into some weird kinks like ddlg are higher, he also calls me a loli which is kinda ewww but i lowkey like that
~ he always holds my hand when he walks with me somewhere, it also makes me feel little
~ he sometimes puts blanket on me and gives me stuffie when i'm in bed falling asleep
~ he just radiates some DD energy when i'm around him i dunno how to explain it but i feel it!!!!!! but i'm still not 100% sure
some of these things may not seem like ddlg things but for me they are somehow related
ARE THESE SOME CLEAR SIGNS
WILL IT BE SAFE TO TELL HIM nOW OR SHOULD I CONTINUE MY TESTS
and most importantly how to tell him, how to start
if you have similar experiences please share them, would love to read it!!
thanks a lot for any advice (｡・//ε//・｡)