I have been a caregiver to my little/girlfriend for almost a year now. In the last 2 months I've felt like I'm not doing a very good job taking care of her. We're long distance for the next almost year after being close distance for a few months. Since she's been away, we've been on video chat and/or texting any moment we can. We watch Kast together, we watch netflix and hulu together regularly, sometimes I even drive down to her and we spend a little bit of time together. I bring her and send her gifts, I do what I can from a distance with her schedule and mine -- and I just don't feel like I'm doing enough.
I feel like I can do more, she tells me I'm perfect and I'm doing everything right and soon things will be back to normal.... and then I feel awful because she's taking care of me and not the other way around... its a viscous cycle of me attacking myself of not being good enough for her and trying to be strong to help her since this long distance thing is tough on her, too.
Have any other new cg felt like this once that "honeymoon" phase wore off? Is there a way I can shake this awful feeling? Has anyone else had to adjust from short distance to long distance and back again? What can I do to make myself better for her? Please help
Disclaimer: My little has done nothing to make me feel this way, she is very supportive and loves me very much. She reminds me daily how I'm the best girlfriend ever and I take such good care of her. This is 100% an internal issue.