SleepnBeuty Posted June 10, 2023 Report Posted June 10, 2023 Wondering how many littles recognize by this age that this was always them? I'm 40 now but even as a teen I knew I was different, I just didn't understand how and I think it led to some of my depression. My friends were all into boys and some even very sexual. I was still hiding the fact that I still played with my Barbie's at 14 and was not very interested in boys like that yet. Anyone else relate at all?
LilLamby73 Posted June 10, 2023 Report Posted June 10, 2023 I completely relate! I liked boys, but was very shy about it. As I got older, I always felt like I was stuck as a younger age. I never felt older or “sophisticated” as I aged. I chalked it up to my faith and having been raised in a small town (I lived in California for 15 years of my young adult life). I also suffered depression for feeling different. I’m going to be 50 this year and I’ve only recently figured out what I am. So you aren’t alone!
Guest PrincessNK Posted June 10, 2023 Report Posted June 10, 2023 Yes! Looking back I can see it too- it's a ever current theme in my life. now that I have learned to love this part of me I hope it continues to be a happy theme!! 😊
SleepnBeuty Posted June 11, 2023 Author Report Posted June 11, 2023 @LilLamby73 when I got into my 20s I tried to dress how I was "supposed" to. It felt awful. Putting on a button down adulty blouse or trying to look grown up just made me feel wrong. I hated the clothes on me. I felt so uncomfortable. We are supposed to grow up and do certain things but my brain was not having any of it.
LilLamby73 Posted June 11, 2023 Report Posted June 11, 2023 1 hour ago, SleepnBeuty said: @LilLamby73 when I got into my 20s I tried to dress how I was "supposed" to. It felt awful. Putting on a button down adulty blouse or trying to look grown up just made me feel wrong. I hated the clothes on me. I felt so uncomfortable. We are supposed to grow up and do certain things but my brain was not having any of it. I completely understand 😔. My first husband would get so mad at me and tell me I should dress with more “style and class”. I tried for years to find a medium ground where I didn’t stand out but I could deal. I literally for the life of me can’t figure out the whole style wardrobe. I’ve had some traumatic things happen in the last couple of years and last year something snapped. I started buying stuff I liked and wearing it without a care about what other people thought. Including my second husband who thinks I should dress more professional. Whatever. I get to work with teens all day and they love my clothes. I wear fun canvas high tops and graphic tees. Sometimes I wear my hair in pigtails or space buns and I have mad love for my colored eyeliners. If I have any regrets it’s that I didn’t let myself be me sooner. I wasted a lot of time feeling like I wasn’t enough or I was deficient in the grown up gene 😂
lilpincess Posted June 11, 2023 Report Posted June 11, 2023 I can definitely relate. I just recently discovered I was a Little, and it was like everything suddenly clicked.
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