Depression

[BonnieBoo]

So... I haven't been able to go into little space at all for the past couple weeks.

 

I have been having problems with normal grown up life and that alone makes me really wired. In addition to this i feel like i'm living in a box because no one i know would accept my lifestyle. I told a friend of mine about it, just in passing, and she immediately called it pedophilia i was really mad but i walked away from her and still haven't spoken to her. (That was probably a month or two ago)

 

The two potential daddies i've met here haven't worked and to be honest it took a lot out of me. In vanilla relationships it wouldn't hurt me as much or probably at all. 

 

So basically I am under a lot of stress with no outlet. I know myself enough to say with confidence that i will eventually turn my emotions off. (i know it sounds like something out of Vampire Diaries but its all too real for me) I say mean things to the people i love, I refuse to eat, I do things that are way too bitchy and it affects my whole life in a negative way that i have to spend a lot of time correcting all my mistakes.

 

Has anyone ever been down this road? Any advice?

[PiratesKitten]

I know what your going through. I have only two people in my life (so I just found out) that accept my lifestyle. It's very scary and disheartening to feel so alone and unacceptable. I will say it's one reason I joined this forum, because Daddy maybe confident in all, but I am not. I think we crave , as human beings acceptance and companionship. Finding A Daddy can be hard, in the mean time, find some new friends. Skype, text, chat, exchange emails; laugh smile, cry, talk. It won't always be so hard. Also try recognizing when your lashing out , would you want someone to react to you like that? Would a daddy want you not properly eating / taking care of yourself? You can do this. I know from personal experience that emotional shutdown hurts more in the long run. Try to find even a small outlet. ::hugs::

[HerDarkDaddy]

I'm more of a private guy. What I do in my time is not really anyone else's business. I don't know if any of my friends or family would approve...because, it's not something I would share with them. That aspect of my life has nothing to do with them so, I do not need their approval for it. But, that's just me...I know that everyone is different and some people need others to be "okay" with their choices.

 

But, you need to take care of yourself and don't let yourself slip into that abyss of negativity. If you are having trouble finding a suitable Daddy now, how much harder will it be if you are walking around with an attitude that no one will want to be around (being "bitchy"). And when you do find one, do you not t want to be healthy for them? Try not to live in today...but rather, look to what may await you in the future. Today could suck...but tomorrow just might be the best day of your life. You won't know until you get there...but, you HAVE to get there.

[Rosetta]

Hey!

 

Its really sad to see so much un-appreciation from you guys' friend circle.
Fortunately, I tumbled into this lifestyle by getting interested in BDSM first, I thought i was a sub (I am, but I mean a complete one, with no Little in it).

I myself completely declined the idea of the Little thing.... And honestly I still have troubles accepting myself like it and respecting it at times.

 

But I do have friends, who are even Littles themselves. That's because, before I even knew myself that I was Little, they became friends with me and told me it's okay to be wholy me.
I met them on a munch. And in general, on munches, people are aware of this dynamic/lifestyle and will be accepting towards it.

I really suggest you go to a munch. There shouldn't be any play there and it's just a gathering of friends or people with the same interests. I organize a munch myself, and it is always a beautiful evening full of mutual respect and interest in each other.
 

Good luck to you!

[BonnieBoo]

Thanks Pirate!

 

 

I do recognize the behaviour its just that i'm not even motivated to do anything about it. I can find new friends here but i'm really shy and i'm also not so great at the conversation part of a friendship 

[PappiScorpio]

I think it is pretty cool that you tried to shared it with your friend. It takes allot you know. She has probably never tried to console herself with what she really wants the that way you do.

 

[BonnieBoo]

Thank you guys I'll think about everything you've said.