Anyone else?

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

I do a lot of meal prepping, so I figured out these quantities as a bulk measurement. Feel free to fiddle and reduce if you don't need so much.

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

I make this in a bread machine. I mix the ingredients before putting it in and rise/cook without the paddle otherwise it overworks the dough. If you want to know the settings I programmed for the homemade cycle just ask. (The other preset cycles didn't cook right.) If not using a bread machine you'll want to mix the ingredients, put into bread pan or mini loaf pan and do a single proof for about 20 minutes in a warm area. If I remember correctly, I baked it for about 40 minutes at 350° but you may need to experiment with baking time and temps a little. I've been using the bread machine for several years now. 

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

I put allergen free semi sweet chocolate chips (Enjoy Life brand) on top of individual cookies and cook them in the microwave for 30-50 seconds depending on cookie size. I think when I baked them it was about 15 minutes at 350°. My kiddo prefers the microwave cooked cookies and as they are easier and quicker, that's what I go with.  

[Flower_Dragon]

@Little Nyx Cool, cool.  Now I get to ask myself if getting a bread machine is worth it.  

[.คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ]

@Little Nyx

Thank you and I'm glad you got out and proud of you as well!

But 12 years later? I've only managed to physically get out 2 years ago. And then had some delays on getting started with therapy again and what not. So while I'm defiantly doing much better, I've known I had a long way to go for awhile now. Just not realized how long. I do feel like the worst is over. My narc abuser was my mother, but I know tactics for narcs are largely the same, regardless of what the relationship is.

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

This comes out as a cross between a brownie and a cake, texture wise. I never tried baking it in the oven as I was already using the bread machine when I figured out the recipe. I do use the light crust setting on both the bread and the cake when cooking. (Forgot to add that in the other post). And I cook without the paddle in the machine. 

[Flower_Dragon]

1 minute ago, .คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ said:

@Little Nyx

Thank you and I'm glad you got out and proud of you as well!

But 12 years later? I've only managed to physically get out 2 years ago. And then had some delays on getting started with therapy again and what not. So while I'm defiantly doing much better, I've known I had a long way to go for awhile now. Just not realized how long. I do feel like the worst is over. My narc abuser was my mother, but I know tactics for narcs are largely the same, regardless of what the relationship is.

Yea, healing takes time.  I completely crashed out when my Dad died.  I'm suspiciously mentally stable at this point, but this point took...*laughs* if it's not 12 years it's close.  But, honestly, the farther you get from it, the better you feel.  You'll get there.  I believe in you.  

[Flower_Dragon]

@Little Nyx Do you not measure the maple syrup?  Everything else has a measurement.  Do you measure it with your heart?

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

(If anyone doesn't know, aquafaba is the liquid from a can of chick peas.)

Aquafaba consistancy varies can to can and I've found for best results I need to cook the chick peas in their liquid a little while to reduce the aquafaba slightly, otherewise there's a chance it will be too watery and the ingredients won't combine like they should. I use a Rubermade Takealong food storage container but a jar will work too. This will last at least a month in the fridge. I use it as a condiment, a dressing for salad with various spices, and mix into rice noodles for creamy noodles. Lots of uses! 

[Little Nyx]

12 minutes ago, Flower_Dragon said:

@Little Nyx Cool, cool.  Now I get to ask myself if getting a bread machine is worth it.  

I just got a cheap little Amazon brand bread machine and it works quite well for the bread and cake. 

[Little Nyx]

14 minutes ago, .คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ said:

@Little Nyx

Thank you and I'm glad you got out and proud of you as well!

But 12 years later? I've only managed to physically get out 2 years ago. And then had some delays on getting started with therapy again and what not. So while I'm defiantly doing much better, I've known I had a long way to go for awhile now. Just not realized how long. I do feel like the worst is over. My narc abuser was my mother, but I know tactics for narcs are largely the same, regardless of what the relationship is.

Don't use my recovery time as a yard stick. I had cptsd from past traumas ranging back into childhood (mostly healed) prior to that relationship. And he tried multiple times to kill me and my baby before I could safely get us out. Yes, my baby, not our baby. The only good thing he did was donate DNA. It was a very toxic, extremely abususive and dangerous situation. He went out of his way to reopen old wounds and add his own. I had a LOT of healing to do.

[Little Nyx]

14 minutes ago, Flower_Dragon said:

@Little Nyx Do you not measure the maple syrup?  Everything else has a measurement.  Do you measure it with your heart?

Yes, maple syrup is measured with my heart. (Garlic, too 😉) But I think it's about 1-2 Tablespoons.

[Flower_Dragon]

@Little Nyx Said it once already, gonna say it again, you're metal as fuck.  

[Little Nyx]

@Flower_Dragon

Awww. Thank you! That means a lot. It's hard to see accomplishments (or struggles) when it's day to day life. Sometimes it takes an external event or person to bring something into focus. I have an especially difficult time seeing my accomplishments and I have very few people in my life to remind me. When someone does it always hits the feels hard. You have made my day. {big smile}

[Flower_Dragon]

It makes me happy, that you feel good.  🥰 

You're an absolute rockstar.

[Little Skittles]

Well, I did... Until I read the replies.