Anyone else? Part 2 - Electric Boogaloo

[Flower_Dragon]

In particular, I think the other neurodivergents here will understand, at least, partly where I'm coming from.  

Y'all ever have one those days?  You know, the ones that don't feel right and you're lucky if you make it through without a meltdown or a shutdown or something?

That was today.  I was not lucky.  And my meltdowns show up as just so much crying.  It's always been my brain's response to being overwhelmed.  Tears.  

So, as I sit with my feelings, attempting to figure out what happened, (ASMRPlayroom on so I have something to focus on visually), it comes to me.

I'm not used to kindness or people being actually nice or people reacting enthusiastically to me.  It is so foreign to me that it overwhelmed me to the point of triggering a meltdown.  

Joining this forum, being active here, it was an act of bravery on my part.  And everyone has been so sweet.  Right now it's a lot.  Really a lot.  But I'm happy I'm here.

[Daddy Bear 77]

All this month someone being unexpectedly kind has triggered tears at the minimum for me. 

[.คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ]

I know exactly what emotionally triggered breakdowns are like. Had one just yesterday myself. I'm also very suspicious of people who show me any level of kindness. These two issues are things I'm actively working on with my therapists though. I hope you're getting the professional care you deserve too.

I'm glad you've found us- welcome home~ ♡

[BabyBri420]

I 100% understand that, my first reaction is always the tears too >.<

We're glad to have chu here! You're a strong bean!

[LittleBiscut]

Helooo, I have been having breakdowns a lot more lately, my first reaction is to shut down and not communicate. Then I dissociate.. for goodness knows how long then I find my DID acting up and I feel like I am crazy 🥹  but I know I am not I just don’t wanna feel or like feel enough idk.  

Edited May 30 by LittleBiscut

[Dangerously_Well]

That's a really powerful and insightful observation. It's so true that neurodivergent individuals can experience the world in unique ways, and that includes how we process kindness and acceptance.

It's beautiful that you recognize the positive impact of this forum, but it's also valid that it can be overwhelming, especially if you're not used to it. The sensory experience of social interaction, even online, can be intense. And the emotional experience of being treated with kindness and enthusiasm can be just as strong.

It takes a lot of courage to step outside your comfort zone, and you should be proud of yourself for joining and being active here. It's okay to acknowledge that it's a lot to take in, and it's okay if it triggers emotional responses.

Thank you for sharing your experience. It's a valuable reminder that even positive things can be overwhelming, and it's important to be patient and understanding with ourselves.