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[Lil Baby Stoner]

It’s about to be a year since I heard those words I’m sorry their isn’t a heartbeat anymore after going back for almost 2 weeks given them so much blood hoping my levels go up instead of dropping I had to fake being happy on my 30th birthday even when on the inside I felt like I was dying cause was going through a miscarriage  that was my last miscarriage(no more babies for me)I love my child and so happy I got pregnant with him so soon after my miscarriage but I keep wondering what ifs and I didn’t handle my miscarriage well and just choice to ignore it and try again  

idk why I’m even posting this but yea 

[kryssi01]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Its 100% understandable to feel this way. I lost a baby November 2022 right before my father passed away. I think about that baby just as much as I think about my living children. It's ok to grieve, to think what if but we can't dwell in it. Hugs from one parent to another. 

[.คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ]

I'm really sorry that happened to you and sorry for your loss, but may I ask you why you had to fake being happy on your birthday? There are healthy ways to express sadness and sorrow with loved ones during events like this, so I really hope someone wasn't pressuring you.

[Lil Baby Stoner]

19 minutes ago, .คℓ𝐞ﾒเᏰααα .ᐟ said:

I'm really sorry that happened to you and sorry for your loss, but may I ask you why you had to fake being happy on your birthday? There are healthy ways to express sadness and sorrow with loved ones during events like this, so I really hope someone wasn't pressuring you.

We hadn’t told anyone about the pregnancy yet so I didn’t wanna announce the miscarriage so pretend to be happy on my birthday to not ruin the mood we announced it about 2 weeks after that but yea 

[BabyPoppy]

I am so sorry for your loss. It's never easy to lose a baby.  25 years ago next month and I still remember,  still long to hold the child that never was.  I, too, never told anyone about the pregnancy,  or the miscarriage, until recently.  It was so painful and isolating to be alone. To walk that path without others. To feel the loss so personally, and deeply, yet to show a fake persona to the world. A happy person going through life, yet blank or crying when I was alone. Pretending my way through life. 

I'm so thankful you had the courage to share today! That you are bravely embracing your loss and the feelings around the miscarriage.  Remember all your feelings are important and a part of the grieving process. There will be ups and downs for decades, but know that you are a beautiful woman, a strong woman to survive this and you didn't do anything wrong. Your baby is safe and loved in your heart forever, even if you never got to hold him. You are also loved. Only a loving parent is heartbroken for their child. 💔❤️

Please message me if you need support. 

Poppy