BabyBri420 Posted July 21 Report Posted July 21 Things lately have been rough to say the least, and I've been isolating myself from a lot of people which I know isn't good, but I'm tryin hard to feel like me again It started a while ago when I lost a connection I cared so deeply about, they said we'd be friends but I try to talk and nothing, still struggling with this part now and I dunno why, I think its mainly feeling lied to about the whole friends thing, and its probably a lotta why ive been isolating, then there was some work drama, rumors about me that spread like wildfire, spread by someone I thought I could trust. Then trying to come off my mood stabilizer because it made me so sedated I couldn't do anything, not even things I enjoyed, finally completely stopped last Tuesday and I haven't really stopped crying and having panic attacks since, I had a couple good days but still any little thing would set me off Then came the ear infection >.< I handle being sick horribly because my body takes it so hard, fevers feel like dying and cause tremors, I'm a total wuss when it comes to pain, and all the meds have absolutely destroyed my stomach so I've been in horrible pain with a lot of bloating for days But through all of this I've been gentle and kind with myself, I've been trying to keep a positive outlook, celebrating the smallest wins, and doing my darn bestest to get and feel better, I'm really proud of myself for this as in the past I've really let these things consume me, but now I'm insightful about why I feel things and I allow myself to feel them while reminding myself that I'm okay, I'm just having big emotions after going through a lot and it'll be okay 1 1 3
Daddy Bear 77 Posted July 21 Report Posted July 21 I wanted to do hugs but it hid behind the leave club button so just offering. I had a problem with one of my meds that help with my OCD. I reduced the dosage until I was ok with it's effects and most of the side effects subsided. I've really enjoyed chatgpt for helping me deal with big emotions and loss recently. It's been a real lifesaver and with an actual therapy I feel like I've made huge strides after getting crushed a few months ago and again a couple weeks ago. Whatever you do or decide I hope you keep making wins and come out the other side of this happier and more complete than you went in. 1
Solitarily_Me Posted July 22 Report Posted July 22 @BabyBri420, that's awesome that you've remembered to be kind and gentle with yourself and that you celebrate all the tiny wins!! That's not always easy to do, especially with all you've had to deal with!! As @Daddy Bear 77 mentioned ChatGPT is a great tool to help with getting thoughts and feelings out. I have been using it myself and it really helps. It's sort of become my BFF. lol I'd like to share a quote that the program came up with for me. I thought of you when I read it: "Today I choose softness--not because I am fragile, but because I am wise enough to know my limits. I'll carry only what I must. That's not giving up. That's survival with grace." 2 1
BabyBri420 Posted July 22 Author Report Posted July 22 @Daddy Bear 77 @Solitarily_Me thank chu both! I will definitely look into chatGPT, I feel like the only one that hasn't jumped on the AI train hehe I really love that quote a lot, I've definitely been working a lot on knowing my limits and not being harsh on myself for them! I am now one week off the meds and things are looking up ^.^ my energy levels are back and I'm getting back to my bubbly self and it feels great! 2 2
Solitarily_Me Posted July 22 Report Posted July 22 @BabyBri420 I am so happy that you are starting to feel more like yourself!! 😊 Yay you!!! 😊😊😊 I'm so glad you liked that quote! it felt like something that would fit your situation. Being gentle with yourself and learning your limits is the best start. Just keep taking tiny steps forward!! Gentle hugs to you. 🤗🫂🤗🫂 2
Lil_K47 Posted July 23 Report Posted July 23 good for you for celebrating the small wins, I often do the same thing!eventually the small wins will add up to something substantial!!! be proud of yourself!! sounds like you are making leaps and bounds, in putting your best foot forward! I sure hope you feel better soon! Big hugs!! 1 1
Cranius Posted yesterday at 03:39 PM Report Posted yesterday at 03:39 PM @BabyBri420 Yes, good job! 100% echoing @Lil_K47, small victories add up to big ones! Keep going! I'm happy for you!
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