i'm tired.... but i'm trying to stay positive & keep my head up like a princess should : )

[little-faith]

hi hi i am stuck and down in the dumps, under the weather, my princess tiara is almost slipping but i'm trying to hold onto or keep it up with my head held high but it be a struggle lol. help meeeeeee plZzzzzZzzz lol!!!!! omg no let me stop and get onto the serious stuff or whatever you wanna call it lol my feels or fee fees or idk anyways lets move on before i get side tracked lol.

firstly idk where to put this so imma just put it on here yk after reading everything ( i hope i read right where to put this. if i need to put it somewhere else i will no worries sorry). lol but sit back and get ready for a ramble and a long vent/post if you wanna read lol. sorry in advance i'm kinda pouring my heart out a lil and letting a lil out with my feels and what not. if you do read all of this thank you for taking the time to and just thank you for being here and for being you. and if you reply you're truly awesome💕 i will try my best to answer or if you wanna we can follow each other and then message. but a really big hug from me to you...... to all of you guys you are just amazing and i hope you see a wishing star in the night sky and and it brings pretty sparkles into your beautiful eyes and that all you dreams come true. 

and if you're feeling the same way i feel in this post or rn....... i'm here for ya truly if ya wanna talk i am here and you are not alone not one bit. but if you don't wanna talk to me no hard feelings i promise. just i hope you have someone to talk to. and if you well i hope you don't though feel this way cause this feeling sucks. but you're not alone i'm sure there's someone on here or out there for ya. but i thought idk maybe i need to vent and get it off my chest yk. and sometimes ik it helps knowing you're not alone it makes a difference. so here i am. 

but let me start with.... i don't usually do this like talking truly about how i feel but imma try now. i feel comfortable here and i wanna be true to myself and try this being truly me and yk being open i feel like i owe it to myself in a way. and the people here in this community you guys are truly awesome and so kind and just i can't put it into words how awesome and wholesome everyone is. this is truly a great and amazing community all together so thank you for letting me join the site all together. i'm so happy i found it. 

but let's get on to it about my vent and why i'm here let's get into the deep shiz 🙄 lol.

ok i'm am trying to my hardest to stay positive bc yk positivity is good and yk the best. but it's getting hard. and i'm finding that there is only so much someone can do yk. idk i'm like going down in a way and i'm just kinda of... or I am tired. if i'm being honest and true with myself and honest with all of you..... i'm tired. and not in a sleepy way. it's in a way that just all of my energy has been sucked outta me and and my heart and soul is just tired and idky but i can't put it into words entirely. if you know what i mean by "i'm tired" i'm sorry you feel this way or if you ever have. it sucks a lot feeling like it. i don't say it a lot irl but i find myself saying it online lately or rather when i'm messaging people and i'm trying to get my feelings out and it just keeps coming out. and idk what to do. i kinda know why i am feeling down more then usual in this moment. like the tip of the ice berg yk and it's starting to crumble but i'm trying to keep it together the pieces that make that pretty iceberg. but the reason why for me to go down more is like.... i feel so stupid for it and a bit or maybe a lot shellfish and like bad in a way. like i have no right to feel this and i'm being over dramatic. but i'm trying to keep my head up and not think to much of it. but it 's hard. ik i was like all excited and everything when i first posted a few times and i truly was and am i mean i found a community that accepts me and this place that is truly glorious in a way.... it's amazing finally bein a part of something and being able to be myself i've never really have been able to or had that. it kinda lifted some of the weight off my shoulders a bit. like i feel like i have the weight of the world on my shoulders and i'm crawling at this point with the weight. but some of the weight was lifted after finding this site and there's still more i'm discovering about it.... about myself with other's help. and just it helped and it helps. but i just went back down so fast and bc of this reason and i'm a little overwhelmed in a way. i'm not gonna say the reasons because i feell stupid for feeling this way or what not. but i'm trying, i'm trying my hardest to keep my head up and not let my tiara fall but i feel it slipping. and the weight is kind crushing me my shoulders really hurt carrying this all on my own and just it hurts. but i'm trying to keep going and stay positive and stay strong. i've been through to much shizz in my life. but like to let this get me down... just like nope i'm trying my freaking hardest to not let it. no matter how much i drag myself with the weight on my shoulders. imma be a good girl and take a sip of water and keep going on my own yk. i'm not going to elaberate ( i forgot how to spell that lol don't judge me lol ) much or a lot. but i'll highlight and give a brief yk story of my life in the short way lol and i'll say this..... i've been really sick and in and out of hospital's since i was 3 years old i am now 27 ( my big age ) i've been okay but i'm starting to have problems again with my health, then bad things have happen to me in my life when i was young, to witnessing things growing up, then being bullied by people, to so many people leaving me in the dust like nothing, to being homeless for about 5 years with my mom and living in hotels and struggling ( thank goodness we found a home like 2 years ago we're still struggling but we're doing yk okay now ), to almost loosing my mom three times, now i take on the responsiblity of taking care of my mom. i know it's a lot i'm not saying this for pity or anything but i'm just venting and just letting yk i've been through a lot and dang it i can get past this. i'm trying and struggling but i'm doing my best to do all of this. but just i'm... i am very tired. and just trying to get by and trying to stay strong.

i am trying to be the best royal and pretty princess i know i can be.

imma keep my tiara on the tip top of my head, no matter the struggle, no matter the bag under my eyes, no matter the weight, no matter the tiredness.

i can beat this.

i just know i can.

i can do this.

i have to do this. 

i can do this no matter what.

i can. 

i can. 

i can.

alright imma try and wipe away the tears now and not be so down. again thank you so much for taking the time to reading all of this ramble of a mess if you did. sorry for being over dramatic and so down yk... i feel like i was. but like this is how i am feeling yk. i wanted to be honest and open and i was. so there ya go and just thank you. 

bye - bye 💕🤗💕 

 

[redruffle41]

I think the way you feel really makes sense considering your history of illness, trauma, homelessness, and having to support your mom when you're not doing so well yourself. Overwhelming! I notice you tend to invalidate your own emotions. I suggest you try to validate them for yourself instead. 

It sounds like you need support while you learn to tackle life (how old are you? Young, right?) I have had to do my own contending with life. I have had to accept things for how they are. I have had to admit my limitations and accept myself where I'm at. I have struggled with wanting to give up, the loss of energy that has nothing to do with being sleepy. The depression of having to face another day. Sometimes I can't be a fountain of positivity for myself and if I am able to be positive I have had to realize that that well will probably run dry eventually. No one feels great all the time and no one feels down all the time but it sounds like you are stuck in a rut and that sucks. All I can say to you is: you can decide what to do from here and you have to live with that decision, be happy, loving and understanding of yourself. 

I hope you get support. You cant do this all on your own if you're struggling. I hope you have social workers, therapists, and doctors. I hope you make appointments and go to them while you balance having to care for another at the same time. I hope you invest in yourself. Some things I think I know:  Things can change, it's all up to me but that's not an immediate and quick race; it's a long race. Showing up and supporting myself while I do that sometimes looks like depression and it sometimes looks like winning. Feelings aren't as important as actions. Learning to pay attention to how I feel and why is important for learning how to not let my feelings in the drivers seat, it rarely helps to smear mud all over myself if I find I'm bogged down.... But it rarely helps to deny my feelings and only try to see the positive. There has to be a learned place that is a happy medium between despair and fantasy. 

[redruffle41]

And also, if your title to this post is a true then you get all the recognition, hearts, love, stickers and praise from me and all of us cuz holding all the things that life has for you, holding yourself and holding your mom while you do it is BIG GIRRRL SHIT. Maybe you're not a princess but a queen

[little-faith]

i get that and i understand i've just been more in my feelings lately with everything that i am going through thank you for replying like really it's nice to like be heard like this yk and i'm just trying to stay with my head up and i do have a therapist and i'll be getting a social worker soon as well i'm just all over and something happened that tipped the ice berg yk but i am getting through it.

[InspireDaddy]

@little-faith, I promise no one can take your tiara away.

This post was your cry for help, but you spent the first three paragraphs trying to make sure everyone else was ok and thanking the community. It doesn't get any more true princess than caring about others during your moment of crisis.

Your tiara is not something you put upon your own head. Tiara's are placed upon your head by all those around you, and all those who know you. Even me, reading your post and writing this response, I place a tiara on your head. It is one of a very many and I promise it can not fall.

I think perhaps the primary issue is that you are very tired. When you are so tired it can be hard to feel special and princess like, even when you are. Where you have been through a lot emotionally, especially with the recent worries about your health again, I would consider if you are suffering from something similar to ADHD burnout. Stress can interfere with dopamine production, and low dopamine is what causes burnout.

I hope you will be able to find some time to rest and relax soon. Remember to put yourself and your health first.

Do not worry about your tiara slipping, it is everyone else who will keep it where it belongs.

👑

Edited Sunday at 12:38 AM by InspireDaddy

[little-faith]

thank you very much really these words made me smile and mean a lot. i'm just idk in the feels i guess at the moment. and just imma try and keep my head up really the best i can bc that's all i can do. and imma try and stay positive lol. and thank you for the tiara you're awesome. thank you.

[MasterPhotog]

Hey @little-faith please come here for a second 🤍 gently adjusts your tiara — it hasn’t fallen, not even close.

First, thank you for trusting people enough to share all of that. That’s not “overdramatic” — that’s courage. You’ve been carrying so much for so long, and the fact that you’re still here, still trying, still choosing to be kind and hopeful? That says everything about your strength.

And that “I’m tired” feeling… I hear you. That deep, soul-level exhaustion isn’t weakness — it’s what happens when someone has been strong for a long time without enough rest or support. It makes sense you feel this way. You’re not selfish, and you absolutely have the right to feel it.

You’ve been through things that would’ve knocked a lot of people down completely — and yet here you are, still fighting to keep your head up, still caring for your mom, still trying to stay positive. That’s not someone slipping… that’s someone holding on with everything they’ve got.

But here’s the gentle truth: you don’t have to carry the whole weight perfectly all the time to still be a “princess.” Even princesses sit down, cry, rest, and lean on others sometimes. Strength isn’t just pushing through — it’s also allowing yourself to pause.

So if today all you can do is:

• take a breath

• drink some water

• get through the next hour

that counts. That is you still wearing your crown.

You’re not alone in this, even if it feels like it. And you don’t have to prove your strength every second — you’ve already proven it a thousand times over.

Your tiara isn’t slipping… you’re just tired. And tired people deserve softness, not pressure.

I’m really glad you spoke up. Keep going — but gently, okay? 🤍

[little-faith]

thank you so much! everyone here is so awesome. but thank you for for these words. i wanna thank everyone for their words. but i'm doing better but am a lil down still but i'm doing okay. especially after that vent and just seeing these comments help so much. then i made a friend who is awesome on here and who has helped a lot too. and the support here is just it warms my heart to know i am not alone. i'm so happy I joined this site and club. i happy i have somewhere to go to be myself and to just let go even for a lil bit and not be judge yk. just yeah i don't wanna seem like a broken tape recorder but thank you so much everyone. i've been on my own a long time and to have this is awesome. and thank you i've been listening to music and trying to get lost when i can a lil. but later i am gonna sit down and lay down with my stuffies and cuddle under my blankets try and watch a movie. and talk to my new dom bc ik i have to talk to him about this and be open and honest ik communication is key with any relationship yk. so imma do that. tho imma a lil scared to open up with him about it. but not like omg scared but just to be open with someone is something else and new like on here yk imma be brave tho. then i'm gonna try and get lost on here ( not in a bad way lol ) and try and make new friends and have fun. but just imma slip into my little space a little for me later when i can yk if that makes any sense lol. imma try and take a moment for myself yk lol. okay let me stop with the ramble lol. but thank you again you're awesome and i am gonna take a breath, drink some water, and get through the day and keep my head up with a smile and thank you for adjusting tiara 😁