Not Sure If I Deserve A Daddy…🥺

[RainbowJackCutie]

I’m sorry for coming here and posting but this little just needs to vent about something…*takes a deep breath*

 

As it says in the title I’m not sure if I deserve a Daddy or not anymore.. like I was introduced to him by someone not gonna mention who cause of privacy and at first super sweet and he knew what he was talking about and don’t get me wrong he is a sweet guy and told me he just wanted a BDSM relationship cause he was already in a poly relationship with 3 others . I mean yes he was there for me when it matters to calm me down but like I know he hasn’t been a daddy in a while ..*sniffles* it’s just the little things like I send stuff and I watch how he responds and it like I know what I can and can’t do by how he responds to it like no audio messages, not so many pictures or videos of me just being happy and silly and cute.. idk maybe it’s just me that’s to clingy and needy and knowing deep down nobody else would want a little one like me. My sissy been there for me the best she can be and brings me a baba and a paci and really gets into roleplay with me and I feel so little but then I start to miss Daddy and like we was roleplay in a play room and I was jumping around and having fun he just sat there in a chair watching me and ask if my sissy wanna join… he didn’t even try to interact and play with me. I been going through a lot iRL as well mentally and emotionally and financially. It’s like I can be happy and then sad and I miss my daddy terribly but I know the problem is me. I’m so sorry for venting. It’s just hard for me right now and he says he will try to help me with something I been struggling with but never really told me how and he tells me I can talk to him about stuff but I just feel like a burden and it’s like what if he gets angry at me and thinks I’m complaining to much and doesn’t want be my Daddy anymore. I know it’s my fault and I just feel like I don’t deserve a daddy cause I’m to needy and just wanna spend time with him.. I just wanna hide and cry most days. When the world gets to much I just wanna run to my daddy but I know I can’t cause he busy and has his own life and gets tired and wanna relax. I understand that , I really do and has been trying to be a good boy for him. I don’t spam him with messages or anything. I drink my water and eat and be patient. I do care about him and I trusted him and told him some very personal trauma stuff and he said he understands and ain’t like the rest. I’m very sorry for venting … *clings to my stuffie and hides in my blanket fort*

[little-faith]

when you see dis squishy come to me and we can talk whenever you want about it yk I got you bestie

[redruffle41]

Poor baby!, you sound lonely. You are capable of great joy when you are getting your needs met.  Keep strong 🧡 

[BabyPoppy]

Hi Jack,

Sometimes my feelings get so big, it feelings like I'm gonna explode! It seems easier if someone else just tells me what to do, but later I feel empty inside coz it's not really what I needed. I needed validation that I am lovable even when I'm a mess. I don't really need all my problems solved, just help solving some of them, like eating and clothes. What I need emotionally is to learn to accept myself as I am. 

Jack,  your Daddy shows up and it sounds like he has some consistent boundaries for you. That is a Daddy saying, "I'm here little one. I'm helping you regulate. I'm your lighthouse in a storm." The hard part for us littles, especially when we have trauma stories, is learning to say, "Yes Daddy." And accepting his words he says. . If your Daddy didn't want you, he would say so. They speak up like that or they else aren't very dominant.... Having a daddy changes us, it helps us calm down and trust ourselves more. It builds us into better people. 

Keep communicating with your Daddy, and your sissy.  It will get better. You are enough. And above all, remember to breathe! 🙂😉

Poppy 💕 

[MasterPhotog]

@RainbowJackCutie 

I’m sorry that you’re going through so much in your life right now, and also facing challenges in your relationship with your Daddy. Thank you for trusting us enough to share this and no worries about 'venting'.

Regardless of how you feel right now, you fully deserve a Daddy. 

When building a relationship, many of us tend to move too quickly or hold unrealistic expectations, which can sometimes lead to disappointment. It can help to slow things down, take baby steps, and take it one day at a time. I hope this approach supports you in building a healthy and meaningful connection.

In the meantime, please remember to take good care of yourself -- eat well, get enough rest, and continue making time for little things and passions that bring you joy.

Best wishes!

[RainbowJackCutie]

@redruffle41 I am lonely 😞 when I don’t have sissy or Daddy me get very lonely and I try to be a good boy for everyone. This is still new to me and for him cause he learning to be a Daddy again. Me is trying to keep strong and be a big boy.

 

@BabyPoppy

Hi Poppy,

Wait … POPPY!!! Oh my goodness it’s been a while since we last spoke! Last time we spoke was on March 17 ! It’s so great to hear from you again! Yes! That’s how I been feeling. It feel like I’m gonna explode! I did speak with daddy this morning before he left for work and we still adjusting to it together and how he still getting use to being a daddy again and I’m still adjusting to having. Good Daddy. He apologized for making me sad. He said everything will work out. That’s how I feel . I need that validation that I am loveable even when I’m a mess. I mean he understands me and knows about my trauma . I do care about him a lot! He does make me happy 😊 I mean I really do like him. He does show up and he doesn’t try to hurt me on purpose. He really is the lighthouse in a storm and my sissy @little-faith helps me feel little when he busy. I love them both so much which is why I think I get these strong emotions and feel things so deeply. That is the hard part learning to say yes daddy and accepting he really does want me . He is really sweet and he makes me blush and gives me butterflies *blushes* I’m use to having people say they want me and then don’t show it.. Oh already having him and sissy in my life has changed for the better like I’m learning to have a voice learning not all men just want one thing from me or is like how I grew up. They make me feel safe in a world where I never felt truly safe.  I just get worried and overthink sometimes but I know things will work out. I know things will get better! I’m just happy I got to talk to him and talk things out. How can I breathe when he takes my breathe away 🤭 no literally especially when I was bratty the first time my jaw dropped and oh my goodness he just knows how to give me butterflies and blush . I really do feel better .

Edited 5 hours ago by RainbowJackCutie