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Not really wanting to be Little anymore.


LittleBratMonster
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I don't want to be a Little anymore. I know adults can get hurt too, but as a Little it seems worse to me. Maybe because it's two parts of me that got hurt instead of just one. Little me and Big me.

 

I'm tired of trusting and believing in people only to be let down. And there wasn't even a reason!

 

If you don't want to be with me because I wanted to talk to you when you said three separate times we would, fine. 

If it makes me a bad Little for wanting attention from my Daddy, fine. If it makes me look crazy as an adult because I couldn't handle it, fine.

 

I would NEVER do that to you. Ever. I wouldn't make promises like that and not follow through. There's 24 hours in a day. For two weeks. You haven't had one spare moment that you couldn't say hi? Unlikely.

 

And the fact that you have been told how it made me feel. That I can't handle it. You left me dropping and didn't care. I was a wreck because I allowed you to make me be one.

 

Well, I'm not allowing you to anymore. I really wished things would be different. That we'd still be together. But obviously, this two week thing was a way for you to duck out on me. Except I don't even know the reason and you won't say.

 

So I'm done being a Little. I'm done with these Daddies and their games and stories. I'm done with relationships as a Little and as an adult. 

 


 

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Guest Andrew10

Im very sorry to hear that. I hate to hear that people who call themselves Daddy don't even know the basics, for them its just sex and its sad. I hate to hear that your completely giving up the lifestyle, but if it makes you happy, then by all means do it. I hope that everything turns out for the best!

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Guest Elencha

*tacklehugs* Aww. Brat, it's gonna be okay. Maybe not today, tomorrow or anytime soon, but st some point, this too shall pass. You WILL be okay. I know you're hurting and by the sound of it, this guy needs head punching, But you, Brat, you will be okay; and we are here for you. If you need to talk, cry, scream, rant, whatever, we're here.

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Guest ScarletBlue
I am truly sorry that happen to you. I'm very new to this lifestyle. So I can't really help out but I do hope that going forward everything works out for you. And that you find love and happiness.
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I can relate. It's weird how your story sounds so very familiar to mine. My so called Daddy loved me so long as I didn't make waves or pointed out things that were bothering me, etc. I'm so sorry you are feeling so low. I'm feeling the same though. I don't know if little me can exist anymore.......
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LBM and NP- I can really relate to how you're feeling. I was drawn in so close to someone only to be pushed away really hard. It is so difficult to risk trusting, and to want to be wanted/accepted as you are by someone who ends up having no space in their life for the full you- emotions and all. To experience that as a little makes it cut all the deeper, too. I am so sorry that you are both going through this :( If you want I am here, just send a message to my inbox. *Hugs*
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I think every Little has been where you are right now. I honestly had to rethink if I wanted to be Little after a lot of poopish stuff happened. 

 

Yes my "person" left (He is not worthy of the title Daddy in my eyes)...and it hurt me so much. I was so sad and depressed. But I realized that it really wasn't me it was him. I got stronger and believed in myself and actually dumped a lot of energy into being better to myself.

 

I Mod a number of Littles groups on G+, so I focused on that and playing video games....so don't worry there will be a perfect person for you. It will take time and patience...I have faith in you  :D

 

Stay true to yourself.

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Wow there are Little groups on Google? Is that plus or Hangouts? I should check them out.

 

Thanks Marie. I appreciate it. Hugs.

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Thanks. I've decided to stay a Little. I won't let someone who is bad at being a Daddy run from what makes me happy. 

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