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IkumiKao

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Hello everyone http://ddlgworld.com/images/smilies/icon_e_smile.gif I thought why not share my experience in how I discovered my little side Since its quite long I thought i would make a post here.

If you dont know me I am a Switch. Im a Daddy but also a little. as a matter of fact my little side is more Dominant. I shared this story with a good friend of mine and decided to save it because it was the first time i had sort of reflected on it http://ddlgworld.com/images/smilies/icon_e_smile.gif

In short, through being a Daddy to a little The relationship help me discover myself. 

I could write for days but here is just a "little" (hehe) bit to shed light on my discovery

well my whole life ive been very sensitive and almost childish to a degree, i love my stuffies and i LOVE cute and pretty things, i just figured it was a weird quirk to keep at bay, when i discovered about DDLG and what it was to be a Daddy, i assumed all those cutesie stuff must of derived from wanting a little girl of my own or something to do with that, and im sure alot of it was, But there had been this other side to me at bay i never experienced before, I found myself at times, dropping into what i thought was a subspace sort of thing, naturally being a Daddy i wanted to pull away from it, hell i am a Daddy, i am a dom what the hell is going on. so i never let it happen, never explored it. In time over the relationship it became apparent that there was a certain degree of nurturing i was needing that was not being met, I had been talking to my little and the "sub space" hit, and so i told her. she encouraged me to let it happen sometimes, and so with that being said she had started to piece things together and eventually came to me with that, how would i feel about having a caregiver? it could be good for you and what you need as there is nurturing you are not getting that i cannot provide to you as a little, i thought, huh, but i am not a little?, she then pointed out that sub space was more of when you are submitting to someone and thats typically in a power exchange environment or something sexual. in a "scene" but that of course wasnt happening, she said could it be you are falling into something of a little space?, it was hard news to think about, for the both of us, she was okay with it, i didn't realize that that could of been happening, but then things started making sense, with that knowledge and her permission as my partner she encouraged me to explore it and let it happen, so i kept an open mind and realized, crap this is some sort of little space, i was giggling, drawn to cuter things, wanted to be less dominant and wanted to play, wanted to cuddle stuffies and watch kids movies. all that sort of stuff. then i remembered there was this one night i had a bit to much to drink (hadn't had a drink in years) and got a bit over my limit. for whatever reason my little had to go do something due to family issues, I then remembered what happen that night, i was in denial about it, i threw a tantrum , i crossed my arms pouted and said things like NUUU I DONT WANT TO WAIT when is honeypuff coming back, im bored. give me attention, stuff like that, then i think it hit me in that moment and i had a "Little voice" brought out this whole time and then threw another tantrum to myself about "I am not little. i am a daddy! said that to myself aloud for like 10 minutes and it didnt stop until i fell asleep" woke up in the morning and forgot all about it, or perhaps blocked it out. so while being encouraged to exlplore this submissive side in me. and this want to make her proud (just as a little wants to make daddy or mommy proud) through exploring all that, realizations of this were uncovered and made, bit by bit. then it made sense why i loved all these cute stuffies, even has an independent man in my early 20s. there is so much other examples and stuff i could say had i remembered it all XD lol but that is just a few things that opened my eyes up to what i could of been or what i was. once i started embracing it, even with hesitation, it became so so natural, i found myself not just being playful and acting young but felt myself regressing i guess, it started off with thinking i was a middle but the more and more it happened i went younger and younger. at some point along the line we came to the conclusion that i was definitely a little and needed at times the structure that a caregiver can provide. we were a monogamous couple so it had its complications but basically that was all resolved in a way we were content and happy with. so with the new found title i suppose from there is where it became a part of me when i was willing to finally accept it, it went from feeling super awkward, almost guilty feeling to actually feeling good about it and myself a little more. and from there its just been a journey that i suppose every little goes on in one way or another finding there inner little. Well thats as much as i can figure out anyway :p . hope i didn't bore you too much haha. 

So i went from The one reading the bedtime stories and giving littles pacifiers to the one who uses pacifiers and wants to be read to instead haha.

Unfortunately that relationship ended in a pretty crappy way but lets not talk about that 

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You know sometimes I feel as though I have a caregiver somewhere deep inside but like you my little is very dominate in this sense.

 

My story is a lot of random events that get pieced together haha.

 

Okay so maybe many of you have heard of it, but I was on this app called ifunny. And I kept seeing cutesy posts about being a little and having "daddy" take care if you and at first I really just ignored it. Then I guess it sparked my interest because I started following a lot of the people. Okay so this was maybe two months deep into the ddlg world now. Alright so remember how I mentioned the randomness. Well my really close friend (who was currently getting ready to move) messaged me that her and her friend walked into a store and saw this girl in a frilly pink tutu and she had a pacifier in her mouth. (I still have no clue why) but I got really excited and just went SHE'S A LITTLE!! Maybe it was the sense of knowing that got me so excited but blah idk. Haha well of course my friend goes.... (Insert name) What the hell are you talking about? So I pulled out my bulletin board, some dry erase markers and a couple of older posts from ifunny (sarcasm) and explain to her a couple of personality traits I have realized are similar in littles. After I finished me and her both paused and just kinda reflected and she goes "So, you just kinda described most of my personality when I'm not around people." And I stop and go "I realized that's me behind closed doors" (heyy so I kinda have a two in one deal haha, helped out fellow little )

We both kinda kept that between us for a while,(maybe a month of sending pictures and random stuff) then we decided to tell our (well her fiance) and my boyfriend at the time. I feel as though it really came to me as we (all four of us) sat around and she kinda started whining and then i started doing grabby hands for my bf. Well yeah, He accepted the role as my caregiver and all was sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows.

 

Well until we broke up for unrelated reasons... But like IkumiKao said let's not talk about that :)

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You know sometimes I feel as though I have a caregiver somewhere deep inside but like you my little is very dominate in this sense.

 

My story is a lot of random events that get pieced together haha.

 

Okay so maybe many of you have heard of it, but I was on this app called ifunny. And I kept seeing cutesy posts about being a little and having "daddy" take care if you and at first I really just ignored it. Then I guess it sparked my interest because I started following a lot of the people. Okay so this was maybe two months deep into the ddlg world now. Alright so remember how I mentioned the randomness. Well my really close friend (who was currently getting ready to move) messaged me that her and her friend walked into a store and saw this girl in a frilly pink tutu and she had a pacifier in her mouth. (I still have no clue why) but I got really excited and just went SHE'S A LITTLE!! Maybe it was the sense of knowing that got me so excited but blah idk. Haha well of course my friend goes.... (Insert name) What the hell are you talking about? So I pulled out my bulletin board, some dry erase markers and a couple of older posts from ifunny (sarcasm) and explain to her a couple of personality traits I have realized are similar in littles. After I finished me and her both paused and just kinda reflected and she goes "So, you just kinda described most of my personality when I'm not around people." And I stop and go "I realized that's me behind closed doors" (heyy so I kinda have a two in one deal haha, helped out fellow little )

We both kinda kept that between us for a while,(maybe a month of sending pictures and random stuff) then we decided to tell our (well her fiance) and my boyfriend at the time. I feel as though it really came to me as we (all four of us) sat around and she kinda started whining and then i started doing grabby hands for my bf. Well yeah, He accepted the role as my caregiver and all was sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows.

 

Well until we broke up for unrelated reasons... But like IkumiKao said let's not talk about that :)

 

Aww thats really cool :) thank you for sharing, quite a cute story how you came to know it :p hehe.

 

sowwi to hear about that, but hey alteast you have found your little side :)

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ever since i was probably 5, I loved being teased because of being small, short, young, or childish, and I knew from age 10 probably that somehow I wanted a relationship where I would be babied. I loved and still love just as much, being talked to like a kid and being teased patronizingly for being small/short/young. Then I realized at 12 that I loved being teased in a cute way at all, and that I loved being held and talked to like I was very small. When I was 13 I then did some soul-searching and discovered the sexual side of my personality, and that I enjoyed being hurt in a loving way, and then I discovered there was a community for what I was feeling, that there was a name for it. The years went by and I feel so comfortable in my skin, as well as my personal tastes and preferences. 

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Well, I guess I've never really moved on from being childlike :p I've always loved to collect plushies, I love watching cartoons & pre-school shows, I love anything cute and pink and frilly. In fact up until I was 12 I still used a paci. I only ever quit because I didn't want to get teased in case any of my friends found out. There is a darker side too, and to put it simply I was pretty much robbed of my childhood when I was 8/9. So I was forced to grow up rather quickly.

 

Then last year I found out about DDlg. (I sorta knew about it beforehand with prior knowledge of BDSM/kink lifestyles, but not much.) And it just kinda clicked in my mind. Like everything started to make sense - all my interests, everything. I didn't want to jump right into it though, so I waited a while and January of this year I decided to try it out, and I loved every aspect of it. Like, I can finally give myself this outlet that I've been trying to suppress since I was a teenager. And for me personally, while there is obviously a sexual side to it (as with a lot of BDSM lifestyles) the majority of it is clean. The whole idea of it is to let myself be innocent again and just to have that constant reassuring protection/protector. I mean, I think being a Daddy is one of the most protective dominating sides in BDSM. Daddy's have unconditional love, and I think that's what I loved the most about DDlg.

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Besides, no one guessing my age correctly and saying I look younger than I really am. And being completely Sweet to everyone I meet. Let's get into my discovery! ;)

 

Well, Firstly,I was always into some form of BDSM learning and researching pet play was my main interest since 2014 but it was not all of the aspects of me like for example, I don't like being in a cage or being treated less than a human being, but I'm not throwing no shade because I still think its a really cool kink  to get into and I'm just still discovering my likes and dislikes. And what I tolerate or will not tolerate. But  I discovered DD/LG only this year. My discovery of it came about  really randomly, so here it goes,  how I discovered it was through the BDSM test. Yeah, I know Really!  For me being new to BDSM period, I wanted to know what was my interests in this lifestyle. So after taking the test I discovered a few things that stuck out to me like:  Besides being a rope bunny lol I discovered that I had some little girl qualities to me. I look it up on google. And I was amazed that this is not a taboo but people really do this in real life and they are considered normal this was the side of myself that I was hiding and feeling ashamed of and that's when I research it and study the lifestyle and I found myself. That I am a Little.  *glitter* *glitter* *glitter*

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