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Trauma hits everyone different. You are doing the right things. You will make it through this. I believe in you.

@MissNMTX @Zina @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker Thanks for being patient friends! Sleep has been in short supply this week but the show must go on. Soooooo... feel free to read chapters 37-41. The book is for sure picking up momentum. Please remember to be checking in at least once a week so I dont have to guess if you are still participating. Have an amazing week! Pigtail

Hi everyone! I've spoken with @shadowriderand he said when we earn a badge, he will add it to our profile. I'll send him a picture and he'll take that and do his stuff. So, just like in real scouts, you be able to show everyone what you've accomplished. Once again, I'd like to remind everyone, that when you so a badge on your own, offline, you will tell us and we'll take the appropriate action to get it put on your profile. But, actual badges, whether on your own or with us as a troup will be your responsibility to purchase. I'll show you ideas of some and you can either go to the place of purchase and get them or pick one that you like better. If you want to get troup numbers, we are: GLOW WORM GUILD, (TROUP) #26.

I was thinking of starting next month with the first meeting

@MissNMTX @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker Its that time!!! Chapters 47-51 are officially open! So read on! Also the reading chat for halfway has been scedualed for Sunday the 15th at 7pm PST!! It was hard as we are all over the place but that is when the most people have a chance to come. Also Wednesday chat is moved to Thursdays permanently. Have an amazing week yall.

@MissNMTX @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker It was a hard pick but we will be doing Sunday the 15th at 7pm PST!!! The link to the chat is below. It will run for 1 hour ish https://www.ddlgforum.com/chatbox/room/4-pigtails-playpen-reading-chat/

@MissNMTX @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker You know what time it is!!! Qithput further teasing feel free to read chapters 42-46! Also the pole for our midway meeting is up so please go vote! Have an amazing rest of the week friends.

Trying to break patterns is not easy! I think you're showing great bravery. Sending you warms thoughts 🌟

oh sweetie I'm so sorry you're feeling the stress!! Like you said just remember deep breath! And remember I think you are way stronger than you think you are!! You're incredibly brave to come here and reach out! But even better, your self-aware of what you're doing! Which means you are in control!! And I will sit here with you and metaphorically hold your hand anytime you need me to! 🫂❤️❤️ Big hugs my friend big hugs!!

Lately, I’ve been feeling really sad. The kind of sad that drains motivation until even getting out of bed feels impossible. I tried to stay positive, to be uplifting, to push through it quietly. Then I got really sick, most likely from chemo, it hit me hard, so hard I was crawling just to get into bed. Thankfully my stomach has settled, my body no longer aches or feels like it’s vibrating, and little by little, the sadness has started to loosen its grip. I’m writing this because no one really knew how sad I was. I didn’t let anyone see it, I let the depression consume me until I didn’t even know where to begin anymore. I could barely keep a smile on my face, and I had no energy left for anything. It made me start thinking about others. How many of the people who are always cheering others on have laid in bed wondering how they were going to get up because of depression? How many of the “strong” or “happy” ones are quietly carrying more than anyone realizes? That thought broke my heart. There were moments when I wrote small pieces about my sadness, but I never went deep. I never wanted others to see my true broken pieces my true sadness, how heartbroken and emotionally exhausted I was and how I couldn’t see past my own hands. Looking back, that’s when I should have reached out. I should have let others in and allowed them to help ease the weight I was carrying. I’m not sharing this for pity, and I’m not asking for concern or attention. I feel much better now than I did then. I’m sharing this as a reminder. Please check on the ones who are always smiling. Let them know you care. Let them know you’re there to listen if they need a friend. Because sometimes the people who spend their lives making others feel happy are the ones who need it the most. Until next time, remember this: you matter, You are loved. And you are worthy of being loved. -Miss Anna-

@MissAnna Thank you for trusting us with something this tender. What you shared takes so much courage, especially after carrying it quietly for so long. I’m really sorry you went through that depth of sadness and the physical toll on top of it, no one deserves to feel that alone. Your words are such an important reminder that strength doesn’t always look like smiling or pushing through, and that even the most giving hearts can be hurting deeply. I hope you know how much your honesty matters and how many people it will help feel less unseen. I’m really glad to hear you’re feeling lighter now, even if it’s just little by little. You matter so much, and you deserve the same care and compassion you so freely give to others. Thank you for this reminder to check in, to listen, and to love more intentionally. Please continue to be strong and know that you too are special, matter and loved 💛

I want to start hosting online troop meetings. these will be fun, interactive and we will be able to earn badges at these meetings and share ones that we have worked on during our own time. I'm going to start a poll of good times to host one each month. feel free to give comments on what you feel about this

Google sounds good to me! I dunno if we said or not, but are we doing online meetings once a month? Also, I have pictures of badge I'll post tomorrow. I'd do it tonight but I didn't get but maybe 3 hours of sleep. I'll also have a more detailed, structured, Badge and Requirments "book" up and ready within the next couple of days. I also thought it might be easier for everyone if we make an album just for our club to put our pictures and things pertaining to the Troop. What do you think? It'll be easier also to keep track of who did what badge.

@princess_ameliadon't leave!! we have badges for everyone including ones who will not attend our meetings online!!!! we have several ways to participate this is for everyone no matter how they want to participate nothing is mandatory!!!! we just want to have fun and make friends!!!! @Lil_K47 I like zoom I use it to video chat a family member only issue with that is without paying for it you are limited on how long the meeting will be then it kicks everyone out and I can't restart for 15 mins. I do not have the extra money to pay for a subscription. but discord and Google meetings both have where you don't have to use video and voice you can just type in it just as we are now. I have used both platforms for video stuff and I like both of them and they are very easy to use. I understand not everyone has a discord that's why I would recommend google meetings because most people have google accounts or can make on just for this so our real names don't show up. I have 2 accounts 1 for my big girl stuff and one for little stuff

Hello all, I'm Lefty as most of you know. I'm an older little, almost in my 40s. Well in my late 30s as of right now. I'm into MDLB.

Yessss! Loving all these new profiles! Thank you all 💚💚💚 Was going to mention that if anyone is interested or sees a profile they connect with head over to the Reading Buddies section and fill out an application!! Also anyone is free to start a book discussion if ypu are reading something and wanna vent about it!

@BabyPoppy you are very welcome! I've wanted to do this for a very long time also! @lillizzie24Thank you so much for jumping right in there and helping! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it! And starting next month was my thoughts too. So we're on the same page. @Lil_K47 You do what you feel like doing, when you can. When you get well, you'll be able to do more. We'll still be here. We want this group to be relaxed and fun to do. We're still in the early stages but it'll smooth out and be so much fun!! Again, thank you ladies for making this all possible!!

video is not required attend however it will make u comfortable. some of the things i have come up with so far is. the first meeting is to get to know each other play some ice breaker games. other meetings i'm looking at doing is littles got talent where we can share something we are really good at, baking badge where we will come up with a snack the meeting before and then we will bake it together at the following meeting, crafts, talk about safety of stuff, basically it will be like a scout meeting but from the comfort of our own homes. we can also do game nights, coloring nights, fashion show, and I will come up with a badge for each one of these activities, I'm open to suggestions too. the other online scouting group I do don't do a lot together and usually just talk I don't want that out of this I want us to have fun, make new friends and earn badges as a group and if someone can't make the meeting they can also earn on their own too . it will be eastern time

Okay came along this little gem from book tok and it gave me such a delighted giggle thinking about all of us out there with steamy spicy kindles *giggles*

Name: Libby Age: 20 Favourite books as an adult: The Cat and Mouse Duet - H.D.Carlton, The Salacious Players Club series - Sara Cate, Daddies of the Shadows series - Kate Oliver, The Perfectly Imperfect series - Neva Altaj Favourite books as a child: The Twits - Road Dahl, Don’t let the pigeon drive the bus - Mo Willems, Snuggle up sleepy ones - Claire Freedman, Calm down boris - Sam Lloyd, Oh no George! - Chris Haughton, Oh ducky! - David Slonim Favourite genre: DDlg, dark romance, spicy books Favourite troupe: who did this to you, touch her and die, grumpy/sunshine, enemies to lovers, morally grey men, found family One book that deserved a sequel: Umm i would say Satan's Affair by H.D. Carlton because I would love to see more of Sibby Do you read physical books or digital: I tend to read the digital copy and then if I like the book then I will then buy the physical copy for my bookshelf. How much do you read a week: I try to read for about an hour before I go to sleep.

Hi everyone I love collecting crystals as well. But I tend to pull to blue shades of crystals. Since blue is my favorite color.

Name: Rosey Age: 41 I have too many favourites I can’t pick! 😆 Favourite books as an adult: Kushiel’s Dart (Phedre’s Series) - Jacqueline Carey, Outlander series - Diana Gabaldon, Fourth Wing series - Rebecca Yarros (gotta cheer a fellow Ehlers girl!), the Black Jewel series - Anne Bishop (would live in this word if I could lol), Court of Ravens duet - Liv Zander (made me cry and no book does that). And if I need to laugh out loud until I can’t breathe - the One for the Money series - Janet Evonavich. Ooo Captured and other books by Rosa Lee because I love the song lists in them! Plus forced proximity for the win! Favourite books as a child: Sing the Four Quarters - Tanya Huff, Emma and Pride & Prejudice - Jane Austen, Oryx and Crake series - Margaret Atwood, Hobbit & Lord of the Rings - Tolkien, The Lost Regiment series - William Forstchen, Friday - Robert Heinlein, Harry Potter series - by she who will not be named, The Worldwar series - Harry Turtledove, Valdemar series - Mercedes Lackey, Practical Magic books - Alice Hoffman, anything by Terry Pratchet (gotta love those funny footnotes) and who didn’t love Nancy Drew classics! Favourite genre: Fantasy / supernatural, Sci-fi, DDlg, dark romance, all the spice!!! Favourite troupe: touch her and die vibes, morally grey character, grumpy/sunshine, who did this to you, enemies to lovers, sassy banter Least favourite types of main characters: helpless heroines, characters without deep development and growth, arrogant mmc who have no reason to be One book that deserved a sequel: I can’t think of any!! I read too many series 🫣 Do you read physical books or digital: I prefer physical books (yum pages smell) but I also read kindle because my thick series books can dislocate my ehlers thumbs 🤣 How much do you read a week: As much as I can humanly squish into my schedule (plus I have a ton of work books constantly on the go)

I was just wishing for a whole playroom the other day where I could decorate it and have all my little stuff in. Then lock it up and just tell people it’s a storage room or something hehe. I don’t have an actual room for that yet, though. Might get a little she shed in the future, but make it a little shed instead. im still very shy when it comes to being a little. I want toys to play with, but still feel weird asking for them or spending money on them. I have lots of stuffies that are all over the house, and I have coloring books and crafts, but I really want my little ponies and a baby doll. I really want a baby doll to take care of. I think, like you, I am thinking maybe keeping them in a closed tote in my closet for now so people don’t see when they come over. I don’t have any small children in my home to play it off as.

I’m so sorry this is overwhelming and hard right now. It’s beautiful that you recognize the trigger, the trauma response and old coping patterns even as they happen. That is the biggest part of the battle in slowly changing them. I can hear the way you are holding yourself with compassion in it too and I am all out Pom-pom cheerleading you doing that. I know sometimes a return of old coping mechanisms can feel like a game over button that starts us over. Womp womp. But this isn’t retro Mario style gaming, it’s 2026 rpg style! When we return to the coping mechanism we are not back at the beginning, we bring with us all our xp, and gear!! I swear this metaphor works. 🤣 Even in an old behaviour YOU are a different person than each time before, with a little more awareness, a little more practice. Like you write, you are not alone. One breath at a time, one moment at a time. You are human and beautifully imperfect. Also *climbs into the hard place with you and just sits* we don’t need to fix nothin. Happy to just sit with you in it. ♥️

@MissNMTX @Zina @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker Please comment here friends to let me know you are still going forward with us!!! I know some of us have been a little busy but the once a week check in helps me keep it all organized.

Healing is not a straight line, it doesn’t come with a deadline or a finish flag. It takes time, it takes facing nightmares that don’t always make sense. It takes therapy, and often more therapy than you ever thought you’d need. And that doesn’t mean you’re weak, it means the wound was deep. One thing that helped me was journaling. When thoughts loop endlessly in my mind, writing them down gives them somewhere to go. It’s called docking. Taking the pain out of your head and placing it on paper so it doesn’t keep racing, so it doesn’t keep owning every quiet moment. You won’t forget what happened. That isn’t failure. Healing isn’t about erasing the past, it’s about time. Time to breathe without bracing. Time to look in the mirror and slowly stop seeing only the broken child who spent years just trying to survive. The way I coped was therapy. I know how hard it is to take that step. I know how vulnerable it feels. But it helped me understand something vital, what happened to me was not my fault. And what happened to you is not you fault either. Surviving does not define us as damaged. It defines us as resilient. Please remember this: You are not alone. You are not broken beyond repair. And you are worthy of being loved My door is always open if you need a friend

@Snowyy I’m really sorry you’re carrying this. What you’re describing makes so much sense, especially after going through something that hurt you deeply. Nothing about the way you’re reacting means you’re broken or “odd”, it means your mind and body learned how to survive when things weren’t safe. That on-edge feeling and those coping habits are signs of strength, even if they feel exhausting now. Healing doesn’t mean pretending it never happened, and it doesn’t require you to relive or explain it in detail if you’re not ready. It’s okay to move forward slowly. The pain coming back doesn’t mean you’ve failed or gone backwards, it just means your system is still trying to protect you. There are ways to cope without talking much about the past. Some people find grounding things helpful when memories hit, focusing on your breathing, noticing what you can see or feel around you, or doing something physical like walking or stretching to remind your body that you’re safe now. Writing things out privately, creating routines that help you feel steady, or having one small thing that brings comfort can also help take the edge off. None of this fixes everything overnight, and that’s okay. Please be gentle with yourself. What happened was not your fault, and feeling disgust or pain about it doesn’t define who you are. You’re already doing something brave by wanting to heal. You don’t have to do this perfectly, and you don’t have to do it alone, support can look many different ways, at your pace, on your terms. I’m really glad you reached out. You deserve peace, and even if it doesn’t feel like it right now, it is possible to move forward while still honoring what you’ve been through.

I know what it feels like to not have many friends in real life. That quiet loneliness can ache in places you didn’t know existed. I have people online who care, who show up, who understand me in ways that matter, but in the physical world it feels so sparse right now, and that hurts in its own quiet way. The world itself feels overwhelming. You turn on the TV or scroll your phone and there is no shelter from it. The fear follows you from room to room, like a storm that doesn’t know how to pass. It’s exhausting, and it’s heartbreaking. I wish I had a magic wand. I wish I could smooth the sharp edges and make everything feel safe again. I can’t do that. But what I can do, what we can do, is be here. We are here to listen. We are here to sit beside you, even in the silence. You don’t have to explain yourself or be strong for us. The world may feel frightening right now, but you are not facing it alone. We will walk through this together, one breath, one moment, one small act of kindness at a time. My door is always open if you need someone to talk to

I'm right here with you if you need someone to talk to. I know how much you loved your kitty cat and I can't imagine the pain you're going through. It's heartbreaking and it absolutely just sucks. They aren't just an animal they become your kids they become your family they become your best friend. They love you unconditionally and when you lose them you feel like you lose a part of yourself. I might not be right beside you but I'm sending you the biggest most warmest hug. I'm right here if you need me

@MissNMTX @Zina @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @kimmybunny @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker Alright friends. For those of you that enjoy these here are questions for chapters 32-36 The mystery is really killing me at this point and stopping at the chapter marks is definitely hard. Per usual make sure to spoil your answers and post in the linked topic below. Post here: https://www.ddlgforum.com/topic/64956-nocticadia-question-answers-spoilers/?do=getLastComment

@MissNMTX @Zina @RoseyLittle @SquirtleSquad @kimmybunny @DaddysCosmicBunny @CuriousBaker So sorry friends last night was a giant mess lol. But I know we all have days like that. I havnt heard from a few of you. If you are struggling please resch out and communitlcate as I 100% understand. Without further ado feel free to read chapters 37-41

Thank you for being so kind to me and thank you for your kind offer

Thank you for your kindness

When chemo had you broken, sick and dizzy. When darker times and depression took hold. When you were brought down to your very lowest... one of your first thoughts was still for other people and if they might need help... 😭like it or not, you are a truly special person. ❤️ ... and yes you are right. Those who have felt or still feel deep pain, are often the quickest to offer support, because they are the ones who know how much a kind word or gesture can mean in a moment of darkness. If you ever want to vent to a random 3rd party about how much of a struggle life can be, and how much energy it seems to want to take from you, I am here for you and I think so are a great many people on this forum.

You are a very strong person. I have known other people who have had chemo. It's never easy. Thank you for being a person who cheers others on and thank you for the reminder to reach out to others who may secretly be having a bad time. You never know when someone needs a little extra light in their life.

Good luck!!!! I'm going to be sending you good vibes! I hope this process leads you to some healing and peace.

I'm interested in 46 monogamous I love 🦇 🐐 🐏 🐑. I wish I could have a pet.

Hi everyone! Here are a few BADGE ideas you can earn on your own. @lillizzie24will be in charge of badge ideas we can earn together as a Troop. @CoconuttyBuddy came up with quite a few of them. So we can start with these and go forward from here, if that's okay with everyone else? Badges to earn: Nature Noticer Badge: Go out to a local botanical garden or park with a list of local wildlife and flora to check off, collect fallen leaves or flowers for crafts, design maps or trail guides with imaginary creatures or monsters. Also, if you don't have a botanical garden near you, going outside in your area and looking for things is also doable. Inspector Badge: Create a who-dun-it with your stuffies, do logic puzzles, solve riddles to create a story. Indoor Camper: An indoor tent style cozy area, fake fire or small candles, marshmallows. Create a new campfire song. Learn camp safety or skills. Tell your stuffies (or little friends) about a time you overcame something difficult. To earn badge: * record on paper or in pictures the activities you do during your "camping" fun. * Tell everyone possibly how you felt during your little "camping trip" and would you or wouldn't you do it again. * Just enjoy and have fun! No right or wrong way to do your own experience. Snack Scientist: Build a char-cute-erie (see what i did there?) board with a little (or big!) theme, bake something delicious (bonus points if you use local produce, vegan, or something else!), design a perfect "little" meal. To earn badge you must do the following: * Think of your theme for your char- cute- erie board * Make at least 3-4 items for it * Take a picture(s) of your board, perhaps explain what you did to create it. How you created it. And anything else you might want to say. * For the bonus points: be sure to mention where you bought (if any), your items that would qualify for your local businesses. (WALMART or other such stores, does not count for the bonus)

Absolutely love these ideas 🥰

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Name: Daddy Bear Age: 48 Favorite books as an adult: 1984 by George Orwell & Me Talk Pretty One Day by David Sedaris, 12 Years a Slave by Solomon Northup, Turtles All the Way Down by John Green Favorite book as a child: Castle Roogna by Piers Anthony Favorite genre: Sci-fi, Fantasy, horror, humor, anything by John Green Favorite troupe: redemption arc Least Favorite types of main characters: Mary Sue/Marty Stu One book that deserved a sequel: Three Body Problem, yes it got a well deserved sequel but the question wasn't what book that didn't get a sequel but deserved one 🤭. Do you read physical books or digital: Both but prefer digital/audio books to help with ADHD How much do you read a week: Approximately 20 hours "She who will not be named" 🤭

Hi!!! I'm looking for penpals too! Would you be interested?

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Im caught up and still reading with yall 🙂

Hello everyone! I'd like to bring up the topic of the time leading up to a birthday. I'm really curious if there's anyone here who completely loses their mood a week or two before their birthday? I've been feeling down and lacking energy for over a week now because my birthday is on February 3rd. This happens every single year. But on my actual birthday, my mood comes back. If there's anyone here in the same situation, maybe you have advice on how to deal with this? Because I need the energy to clean my home, but I just can't find it.😞 Socializing gives me a bit of a mood boost, so I'm always happy to meet new people. Usually, when I'm talking with others, I feel needed, and that makes me feel better.🥺👉🏻👈🏻

@dollreverie I’m so, so sorry. Reading this, you can feel just how deep your love for your dad runs, and how much care you poured into every part of his life and his goodbye. There’s nothing messy about this kind of grief - it’s the sound of a heart that loved fully and is now shattered by the absence of someone irreplaceable. Twelve years of being each other’s constant leaves a space that feels impossible to comprehend when it’s suddenly empty. He wasn’t “just an animal.” He was your companion, your responsibility, your comfort, your heart outside your body. Of course this hurts the way it does. Of course it feels unreal. The bond you describe is profound, and the loss of it is profound too. The way you speak about caring for him - managing his illnesses for years, protecting him from suffering, holding him gently even after he was gone - is filled with tenderness and devotion. He knew love and safety because of you. That matters more than words can hold. Carrying grief for your dad and then losing your soul cat on top of that… it makes sense that it feels like too much. Grief doesn’t measure or compare losses; it just responds to love. And you loved deeply, in both cases. There’s no wrong or shameful way for this pain to show up. I’m holding so much compassion for you as you sit with these memories - even the ones that feel unbearable right now. What you shared is raw and heartbreaking, and it’s okay that you needed somewhere to lay it down for a moment. You’re not weak for hurting like this. You’re human, and you loved fiercely. Please take care💔

WOW! This is such a beautiful, thoughtful activity, thank you for sharing it so warmly. I love how you highlight the why behind it, because it’s so true: when we’re activated or overwhelmed, even the simplest grounding tools can slip right out of our minds. Having a kit ready, created by our calmer selves, is such a compassionate gift to our future selves. And the way you describe it makes the whole process feel joyful and empowering, glitter, sparkles, soothing textures, comforting memories, all woven together into something that’s both practical and deeply personal. 💕 Your ideas are wonderfully accessible too. Whether someone wants to go all-out decorating a treasure box or just pick up something simple and fill it with care, there’s no wrong way to do it. I especially love the mix of sensory items, comfort objects, and mind-focusing tool, it’s such a gentle reminder that grounding can come from so many places. Thank you for sharing this in a way that feels safe, creative, and motivating. It’s the kind of post that makes people feel seen, supported, and inspired to try something nurturing for themselves. Keep up the good work!🌿✨ This is such a beautiful, thoughtful activity, thank you for sharing it so warmly. I love how you highlight the why behind it, because it’s so true: when we’re activated or overwhelmed, even the simplest grounding tools can slip right out of our minds. Having a kit ready, created by our calmer selves, is such a compassionate gift to our future selves. And the way you describe it makes the whole process feel joyful and empowering - glitter, sparkles, soothing textures, comforting memories, all woven together into something that’s both practical and deeply personal. 💕 Your ideas are wonderfully accessible too. Whether someone wants to go all-out decorating a treasure box or just pick up something simple and fill it with care, there’s no wrong way to do it. I especially love the mix of sensory items, comfort objects, and mind-focusing tool, it’s such a gentle reminder that grounding can come from so many places. Thank you for sharing this in a way that feels safe, creative, and motivating. It’s the kind of post that makes people feel seen, supported, and inspired to try something nurturing for themselves. Keep up the good work!🌿✨

That's harddd!!!! But probably Alex, she's special! But don't tell my other stuffies, I don't want thems to get sads! @babybunnyx Fredrick is so cute! 🥰

yes! he’s been my best friend for 5 years now and i can’t sleep without him :)) i’m in portugal visiting my cousins who live here, it’s very sunny but i did get a little burned when we went to the water park!!